bernicecheee. Name♔ Bernice Chee Wai Yee Nickname♔ Ber Age♔ Eighteen(2014) Birthday♔ 13th of September Height♔ Too short to be revealed Weight♔ Around 40kg. Nationalist♔ Malaysian Race♔ Chinese Religion♔ A follower of Christ & a child of God :)
Anyeongggg.
God loves you and He created the beautiful you and the jaw dropping universe. You are beautiful and unique in your own way so don't you doubt that. :D
"Are not five sparrows sold for two cents? Yet not one of them is forgotten before God."Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Do not fear; you are more valuable than many sparrows. - Luke 12:6-7
Money is not the root of evil, but the love of money is. The flesh is good, but the lust of flesh is not.
I feel extremely awesome to have been spending my past few days in church. Being able to serve a living God, whom we call Father. I find it super duper cool to be calling the creation of the world Father. For by the Spirit we are all adopted to be His Sons and Daughters. Isn't it great also that we are Jesus' brides? I find that super amazing, I mean, I feel special.
I have been an usher for a year plus now but I think I haven't been doing a good job. It's true that I fear to offend people but I have never realised how sometimes as an usher we should be doing our job, yes, firm is the word I guess. It's okay to be asking people to move. I mean that isn't hard. I've learned my lesson, I hope.
Sigh I was just quite emotional to be said I wasn't doing my job by a person, who wanted what's best for herself. But I was fine with it, I was really okay though I got distracted by it while worshipping, but in the end I guess I was just too touched by the Spirit. I was crying my eyes off I couldn't stop, I couldn't sing too, but I felt so thankful for whatever He has done. So thankful. I was also very shocked how Pastor could sense that there were people with Thyroid problem and that God wanted to heal people with that problem. My jaw literally dropped.
I couldn't feel anything on the first day but the message on the first day was so great! It was about David's life. How he was a rejected son because when God wanted to anoint a king he asked Samuel to go to Jesse to look for David. David was out in the field, his companions were just sheep and other animals, you name it. He had no one, he had no instagram, but he had God with him. He trusted in God although he could have been feeling so broken. He had his 'target practice' when he was in the field. God then anointed him as a king. He then was asked to fight Goliath, a dude who was nine feet tall. He won in the end. It was such a good message, isn't it?
Even when the enemy might look like a giant, when we have God, we are stronger than we think we are. (Even when circumstances may seem huge, but we shouldn't be intimidated by them because we have a God who will help us through.)
Also, Pastor Henry(from Grace church) was saying how we can go through circumstances because we know the end result of it. Malaysia still has hope because the Kingdom of God stands forever. We, just do our part to continue to be obedient children of God! :P
I attended the conference on the third day! (YAY! Thanks so much to Chee Hong who got the band from his neighbour for me :P) Pastor Daniel was sharing how his family members didn't agree that he decided to go full time for God after coming back from UK for further studies. He then told us a story about a person struggling because his mom didn't let him to get baptised. He asked for a few years and finally decided to be baptised but before that, he wrote a letter to his parents. He wanted to be near God, but he also wanted to honour his parents this way. It was the best decision, I mean, we should really put the journey with God above all else.
I could relate, I could relate because I have my mom who doesn't allow me to be baptised too. I think she would probably chase me out of the house or something if I really get baptised, but I'm praying each day very hard, and I know that the Lord loves her as well.
At night, it was time for rally and this time I think I did quite a good job(I hope) and there were overflow rooms so after some time we didn't have to be worry about how some people still haven't gotten their seats anymore. :') but 2nd day was practically a chaos. D':
Anyway on the third day, things got better. And this time the Spirit was so strong. We were asking for more of His Spirit. Pastor Russell declared that Malaysia is gonna be changed after that night, and we believed so. He then started to pour water on a worship leader's head, and that person fell on his knees RIGHT AWAY, his head was on the ground. We were asking for more, we kept worshipping, until a few second after we stopped singing, people were laughing, falling and I was suddenly speaking in tongues. It was so divine. I mean I couldn't stop. I was just so happy I was overjoyed. I felt so much of Him. My soul was rejoicing. Even when I was crying on the second night, I was at the same time laughing.
My soul was happy. I wanted more of God.
It's true also how Pastor Russell said the devil has been trying to brainwash other people to make them think that Christian gatherings are boring(and we ourselves tend to fall into the trap), but nope, not at all, in fact we should be the happiest people who party every day because we are spiritually satisfied. We are having party on Earth because that's what happens in Heaven too. People have misconception that heaven is a quiet place but nope, in Heaven, they worship 24/7. Angels sing when someone accepts Jesus as Lord and Savior, when a lost sheep is found.
They are having party every second in heaven, a place which is only filled with milk and honey, love, joy, eternal happiness. Heaven is home.
And I, I am definitely awaiting that one day to say "I have finished my work on Earth and I'm going home now to You, Lord," with full excitement. The amazing difference between Christian and other religions is that we actually look forward to return to God, all in all, we were actually from Him, now it's just a period of test for us, isn't it?
I think I forgot to mention that Pastor Chris has become Deputy Senior Pastor right? :D So I was trying to tell my brother that this afternoon and he couldn't understand me 'cause I pronounced deputy wrongly ahahaha!!#OhMyEnglish I always thought it's pronounced at dee-pew-tee but nope, it's actually deh-puh-tee. D: I think I was laughing more than my brother did after that.
Anyways, a new update on the job Fiona offered me yesterday.
The parent called me and told me that she could pay for my taxi fare, back and fro. I was kinda excited and told my mom about it but at the same time worried about how unsafe to be hailing a taxi and being in the taxi with the taxi driver ALONE. I guess I just can't express my gratitude towards God enough 'cause as soon as my brother told me to reject the job and take up the Kumon job instead, and for a few minutes before she sent me a message, I was kinda worried about how I should reject the job.
Guess what?
She told me she discussed with her husband and they suggested to pick me up at Bangsar LRT station and are also willing to send me back to LRT station after school. And I'm assuming that they are really rich 'cause they are willing to pay me at a quite reasonable amount for a half day job. and 'cause I'm only required to work during weekdays (school days), I was utterly shocked by the grace of God. I wasn't preparing for anything like that, honestly. She even offered me a trial period and agreed on letting me to take leave for driving test! Brother said there may be a catch because she's offering good hot stuff there.
Although the reason why the child needs a personal assistant is because he has Dyspraxia, let's just pray and hope that he's as loving as how his mom described him as. Even if he is not, I hope I will keep myself reminded that it is all in God's plan that I should be showing my unconditional love towards him, a love that God has shown us by sending His Son to us, to die for our sins, when we don't deserve it at all.
As Pastor Chris said, let's pray that God will make us a stronger person instead of praying for an easy life. Sufferings are always good to shape us to be an even stronger person.
This is actually a reminder post for me to remind myself that no matter what Rayhenn will do (that boy's name is Rayhenn!), I will still love him or at least demonstrate how Christ has loved me. It is not gonna be easy, I hope when I throw tension on twitter someone will just lead me back to what I've said(or rather, what God has said), to love.
There's a saying that you can only love when you have experienced true love, and God is God of Love, and He Himself is Love.
Let's not forget to love one another as ourselves! (:
Although it's a reality that leaders are leaving to pursue their studies I'm glad to have seen how the younger ones in NextGen or aiya, i just say the name lah.. I'm glad to see Caleb to rise up as a leader. It's quite overwhelming to see how he's all out for God after youth camp. I was kinda surprised how he suddenly became so active in CG, honestly speaking.
Then he explained today that he had practically no free time throughout last year and he's quite busy this year too. How he really wanna prioritise Christ this year and how he sees prayer so importantly now. He's also started to open up himself, I guess? It definitely requires huge courage to be sharing what you don't even tell you bradaas(close buddies in school) but CG members. True enough that most friendships last longer when there's a spiritual connection involved.
For example, Caryl and I? She brought me to Christ, that's how we connected and recently she was facing some problems and we got pulled back together because of Christ again. It's amazing how things turned out, and the fact that we are even closer than before, just amazing. I guess it's just how it goes when you bond with a person spiritually, truly amazing that it's indescribable.
It's kinda sad though, that she's leaving, but I do pray that she'll do well in her studies in Aussie. No matter how long she will be there I really pray that this friendship lasts.
A note to Caryl, not sure if she will read this but..
I thank God so much each day that I've Him in my life, but you definitely have no idea how thankful I am to have a friend like you. Although you said you didn't do much but this just shows us how important it is to just do our part, to just try our best to invite people and let God do the work in them. I've never expected that we would become this close after so much we've been through in these five years but I'm thankful that after all that has happened, we finally know who our true friends are. Just like what Pastor Chris said today (to be precised, yesterday), all sufferings only happen because He wants to shape us for the betterment, to be a stronger person. So I pray and hope that in the future, no matter what happens, if you can't find anyone that you can talk to about your problems or anything, I'll always be here available for you! Also, let's strive to seek God deeper, and also not forgetting to keep each other accountable, because being in one body (of Christ), it's important to always look out for each other. We sure won't want anyone of us to fall out from His goodness, and I'm sure this can only come true if we really spend time praying everyday, to guard our hearts, this can only be done through Him and by Him."
K this is awkward I just saw a rat right in front of me. It's huge and I don't know where it's hidden now. I hate rats ugh anyway..
Please do keep in touch k, love? :) ♥
UGh so stupid that rat just ran under my chair. I think my house is not suitable for CG anymore lol. Guess I just have a-too-amazing neighbour who never keeps his garden clean. :') So much for cleaning up I'm so glad to have him ugh NO!! I don't know where it's hidden now again!!
Let's just go back to seriousness or else I'm going crazy.
Anywaysssss, something amazing happened today I don't even know what to say about it. So miraculous in a way. Uhm, actually I drifted my mind away during the prayer in the morning because I was kinda worried how I might not be able to commit myself in YouthAlpha 'cause I'm guessing it will be during the weekends. I guess God shouldn't have answered me through Fiona but He works in amazing ways! (because I was being disobedient hahaha! Not focusing during prayer :P) So after the Alpha training in the morning. Fiona sent me message through Whatsapp that her dad's friend would like to hire someone who teaches a kindy kid for half a day.. Since that boy has only just started his kindergarten so the parents wanted someone to make sure that he's doing his homework and all. (let's pray that he won't turn out to be a naughty child)
And then I called the lady, I'm still quite surprised that I actually opened up to her honestly about everything and I hope she didn't mind me talking too much ahahha, 'cause the fact that I called her she didn't pick up and she called me back I might have already caused her to spend quite an amount on the phone bill hahaha!! But she was nice! She told me that it's located at Bangsar and if you know me well you'll know that I have transport problem 24/7. Then this lady said she will contact the parents and pass her my contact number. So be it, if it's God's will, it will happen.
I'm actually depending on Him a lot lately, especially in making decisions. I've decided that if Form 6 shifts to the centralised building, then I will choose early childhood (or even foundation/A-levels in Science) depending on my results! Which is good, definitely, to be able to depend on Him I feel so safe. So I think people were quite shocked that I looked less worried than they did ahahha!
I want to make it a goal this year to just surrender all my problems to Him, and be less worried.
"We're giving it all away, away, we're giving it all to go Your way!" I guess this sums everything up? :)
Coming up..
1.There will be night rallies (CONCERT!!) this coming Thursday, Friday and Saturday by Planetshakers (Not some *CHAPALANG* band but they're all the way from Aussie!!) Do come if you wanna be hyped up for concerts! It's FREE! Not a concert person? Nevermind! You'll enjoy yourself nonetheless! Don't worry about being awkward 'cause everyone is very friendly hehe! Oh! It'll be held at DUMC, Dream Centre! Do tell me if you're interested(or FB/Twitter/Whatsapp - I have practically everything!)
2. There will be a YouthAlpha Launch Party on the 15th of February (Saturday) for Teens from 2-4pm ; 16th of Feb (Sunday) for Campus students from 8-10pm. It's a party so don't be afraid to mix around! There'll be FREE FOOD! What say you? It's FREE!! Do come, it's at DUMC, Dream Centre! Do tell me if you're interested, too!
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Once and for all, it's gonna be a long post, be prepared!
It's rare to not be blogging overnight on the 31st December, which is I guess, great, to be not spending my last day of 2013 with the computer but with the churchies and God. It was definitely a memorable one.
I'm super blessed to have Caryl as my friend, basically she had her parents to send me to church for watchnight. Also, she played a huge roll in bringing me to Christ. I remember it was the musical thingy going on in my church in 2010 if i'm not mistaken, 2009 was still LOUD but I don't think I went out to accept Christ until a year later. I really did enjoy myself during LOUD and I remembered meeting Ian Tan (whom I called daddy - because he was with Caryl back then) for the very first time.
180 musical was good, but I didn't expect myself to accept Christ. All I remember was the whole gang went in front to say the sinner's prayer and BADOOM TADA. Although I was still quite blur about what was really going on and didn't continue churching then but I still loved the songs being played at home everyday. (Brother was that religious teenager who would blast Hillsong's songs every single day!) Until Kyleen patiently talked to me about Christ and I knew about the Bible having 66 books etc. I decided to follow my brother to church some time in 2011 and surprise Kyleen by going into her CG without informing her earlier. HAHA. I remember how shocked she was and she had her eyes wide open. Jehanne was the leader, Sarah was the assistant leader, John was the helper. Sarah wasn't there that time though, and Kyleen and Valerie were telling me how I SHOULD meet Sarah because she's that giggly girl who laughs ALL THE TIME, or rather, her laughs just make you laugh too! Now that I'm reminiscing the past, I kinda miss Sarah's laugh. Jehanne left, John stepped up to be the leader. John left, Ashwin came. Now that Sarah has left, Ashwin is leaving in a week's time to France. We're leaderless, but that shouldn't be the reason to stop us from going to CG (although I nearly did).. After yesterday's dinner (chilli pan mee YAY!) I was seriously impressed that Caleb was beginning to open up himself to be a leader, which was good. But all thanks to Valerie actually, she played a big part in telling what she really felt about the merging of CG.
I guess things are better off to be said honestly. Things are getting better in CG. Worries that I have once worried don't matter anymore. I guess introverts just take a super long time to feel comfortable around extroverts. Thank God, 'cause honestly I've been praying for the CG.
I'm getting long winded anyways, I was celebrating the last day with Caryl and her family, and I went to Kayu for Supper with the churchies (including John, Ashwin, Joel, Sara, Amanda, etc) and I even met Pastor Gilbert, Pastor Chris, Ian Tan and Hui Wei, oh oh, and Ken Vyn!! :D Also Bryan Loh 1AM at Kayu ahahha!
Oh I brought Aaron(Kan) to church too! His mom didn't let him to go clubbing with my brother (I understand the reason behind because he's now the only child) but I still can't really compromise how she wanted my brother to be the bad guy. That, out from a mom, is understandable, but you allow your son to hate my brother but cannot accept that one day your son will find out. I guess what I remember most is that sentence you said to me with that annoyed face: "Your brother is not the bad guy, I'm the bad person okay?" And turned away as if I deserved that sarcastic lecture. How on earth would I know that you will use my brother as a shield so that your son won't hate you? Although it's understandable that you did it all because you wanted it good for your son, but how would I know, seriously?
Anyways, John sat in front of me, Ashwin and Aaron beside me. John was asking about my purpose in life. I stoned for not only a while, but a very long time and tried my best to avoid the topic but he threw an even tougher question to me. It's about what he had taught me and what I'd learned from it. I seriously couldn't remember anything except predestination. D: But anywaysssss, silly me, I thought Ashwin wrote me a letter but it's a letter I wrote for myself in the beginning of 2013 but I forgot. I was screaming at home saying how sweet Ashwin was HAHAHAHA! Too funny!
I went to school the next day and Thiam Joo ditched me for lunch with Sir! And then I went to One Utama for a sudden shopping with Siew Chin and Siew Yoong HAHAHA! I was supposed to be having my nap! :P
Thiam Joo came to my house to do some work and we got to know that my brother used to be his sister's high school friend. Then he stayed back to play FIFA with my brother and Aaron when he was supposed to go home, but that's not the main point. He brought his gf to my house the next time he came and that's really why I'm talking about this!! It was the most awkward day in my life I swear. ._. What did I do to deserve that LOLOL. Sorry lah, but it's just so weird to be a lightbulb for them. It's already weird enough that I've been lightbulb for both my brothers. Ahhh, I'm gonna make 'em all a lightbulb for me and my future boyfriend one day as a revenge! HAHAHAA!
So things were better after they left, definitely.
I passed my Undang! Although I still couldn't beat my mom and my brother's score! Boo! But thanks to be God seriously, I only started doing the 500 questions at 12AM. I only slept two hours in the end, *sobs* then slept the rest of the day after the test hahaha!! Bengkel last Thursday and fortunately Seen Ying was there too! Too blessed to have a friend with a surprise presence!
And yea, that's almost all why I have been MIA for a while.
But I left out this one thing, which is...
TADA!
I guess I will have my New Year Resolutions in another post! Hang in there, you guys!
I wanted to change my blogskin but oh well I'm too lazy to (although SPM can be said to be over but I'm still lazy), the fact that there's still a subject to go doesn't trigger my muscle cells to hold a book. My afferent neurons haven't been doing its job too well to carry nerve impulses from my receptor to my brain, and my efferent neurons are definitely not triggered therefore my muscles are not doing anything interesting, or productive.
Oh well, over, everything's over (except Chinese, which I do care and want to but I haven't- I hope I will do something about it soon), high school life is over. Okay this is getting emotional but I'm still gonna say, I haven't missed my school that much yet but I'm sure I will. People were already posting pictures of the school compound with all the emotional captions on Instagram. LOL. I don't have so much good memories (not that I can think of) except I've to admit that I've met great friends, dedicated teachers and even God at one point of my life. All I wanna say is that I'm really thankful to have met God and all the awesome friends, you know who you are!
I've gotta admit too, that I've learned so much from everyone.
Let's talk about my SPM. (although it's over but I seriously need to write down all these) - to ensure that when I get my results I will still be thankful to God because I really feel very grateful that God has brought me through this whole month.
So 6/11, it was BM paper.
I had the best moment although I only wrote 6 paragraphs for the 2nd part of my essay.. SINCE I ACTUALLY MANAGED TO FINISH WRITING :') #thankGod
7/11, English.
I'm really hoping for the best since my grammar is really poor, and prolly no chance for an A+, don't even think I will get an A for 1119. but still #thankGod that I managed to get it done.
13/11, Sejarah.
I went to church to study on the 12th! It was great hahaha! I managed to finish 3 chapters there and went around and had a walk! but still didn't manage to finish the last 4 chapters of Form 5 sejarah, and still don't know what's going on even until now. I think I had 12 mistakes for the first paper, oh well. I'm never good in History so if I get B for it I'm also okay (but of course still hoping for an A!) #thankGod anyway!
14/11, Sejarah 3.
I think I screwed it up ahhahah! I didn't have 30 points for the 30 marks oneeeee ): I STILL DON'T KNOW WHY THEY WANT US TO WRITE MALAYSIA'S CONTRIBUTIONS WHEN REALLY THERE WERE ONLY A FEW! #thankGod though, I got through.
And then the supper gang + YouJin + Yew Han - Siew Yoong had lunch at Kayu!
Had nap and received a bad news that Natasha got into an accident.
18/11, Mathematics!
40/40 for paper 1 babeh! First time in my life but I think I screwed up paper 2 a bit! HAHAHA. oops. #thankGod! but it's my only hope for an A+ there )': OH WELL.
received news that Natasha passed away.
20/11, Moral.
-________________- I was really angry on that day because the government tried to be creative and changed format. If I don't get an A for moral I have no comment. I just crapped them all out. & was stressful that night because I was really afraid to disappoint Terry! but #thankGod I had sufficient sleep to get through the next day!
Natasha's burial service.
21/11, Additional Maths!
I GOT THROUGHHHHHH :') now just hoping for the best! My another chance for an A+ if no A+ on results day I cry! )': but #thankGod nyeheheheh!
25/11, Physics.
Not bad I guess, hope there's still an A there! 5 wrongs for paper 1 I'm oh so happy! #thankGod
26/11, Chemistry.
SO BAD, SO SO BAD, SO VERY BAD. I didn't know how to do a lot and had no time to finish doing 4 questions, tembak 4 semua wrong -_- ! I was hoping to get less than 20 wrongs! but I got 14 wrongs in the end. So sad! :'( prolly no A le.. maybe a B since I screwed up paper 2. I have so much to talk about this paper! Paper 2 was so horrible! I couldn't finish the last essay question and started to panic on the last ten minutes and nearly peed in my pants I'm not even kidding! I WAS SO SCARED AND I WANTED TO GO TO THE TOILET AND I KNEW I COULDN'T. SOME MORE I WAS SHAKING LIKE THERE WAS AN EARTHQUAKE. I was so so so sad and scared. K I did tear a bit after that paper but #thankGod for YewHan for cheering me up! (:
27/11, Biology.
hahahah quite doomed for paper 1 but cannot check answers since it's in the hall I FORGOT TO GET IT! ): Paper 2 was horrible I didn't even know how to answer a single question confidently. Had tips for paper 3 and felt really bad because Pastor Chris just said "it's not about having an easier way to pass, or a harder way, but the RIGHT way to pass" -- He said he was telling his son not to bribe even though it might be easier to pass the driving test, but it's applicable. I think I greatly disappointed God.
I'm seriously okay with people having the exact paper, and I hope I will remember this: that even if my results turn out to be very bad, I did my part and trusted and committed them all to God all the way ( except I really didn't for Chemistry and Bio paper 3) - I chose studying and listening to tips over trusting in God. I guess I deserve a punishment if I didn't feel bad. God would prolly ask my next time when He sees me. Oh, what would I answer? I will just tremble. :/ ..Punishment too for not able to get an A.
Oh well, I've done my best and am hoping for the best I can get.
Still got Chinese though! I need to go and memorise MINGJU LIAO (haven't started) but before I end this I just wanna confess that I am greatly disappointed by the world.
I won't mention names here.
"When you go out to the society next time people will just climb to the peak without having to work hard. This is the society. The 'lower' ones will do all the job. There's no point for you to work hard since your hard work won't be paid off." -- without feeling bad & follows the ways of the world because it's a norm to do so. + driving without a license and bribed the police.
I hope I won't do so in the future when I drive next time, but will wear a cross necklace and tell the police straight in his face and show him the cross that I'm a child of God and won't do such a thing to let him earn frigging extra coffee money. (Like how in one of the testimonies shared by Pastor Daniel!)
But at the end of the day, this is the world. I'm sure God is disappointed.
Though so, judgement will come one day, when Christ also will come like a thief, no one knows when, but the day will surely come.
I guess I should be praying for this person. 'cause God will surely forgive when one repents.
I prayed to have the courage to go out to get prayed for Natasha..
It was hard in the beginning.. I knew how sad I was deep inside but I was still trying to watch YouTube videos to cheer myself up. No, I'm not depressed. Don't worry. It's just that I wasn't so happy but I had to put on a smile to usher people in. I felt really glad to see Mei Yi (one of my CG members who is also an usher..).. And I thought I had no one to count on.
I'm so grateful to have my CG members despite feeling so tired to fit in. I didn't want to ask to save them seats today so I decided to not look for them. But God still brought Mei Yi to ask me where I was sitting anyway..
Then we (the young ones!! ROAR) were giving out bulletins to the churchies! I had to pretend to smile for a while in the beginning. Wasn't a good start but still got through. I'm also thankful that William (the KRS guy! - forgot his surname oh no!), he asked me how was SPM oh maiiii!! How does he know my age @.@ I was really shocked, honestly. Oh, before that happened, Le On the tall guy was standing beside.. Therefore we formed a Taman SEA line hahaha!! I didn't realise until Li Yen (Chong) mentioned. :p I felt so love because they are such friendly people and I genuinely started to feel happy. Though Mei Yi kept mentioning how I should wear high heels when I stand beside those two tall guys especially when they are 30cm taller and I look really petite in between.. !!
To be able to sit with my CG members.. I felt happy too, I mean this time I really didn't have to try to fit it since Cheryl Tham and Jenna are two of whom I can be who I am with. As for Lu Zhong, I'm starting to feel ok plus I knew he's sad last night so I asked him about it and I guess he felt a little bit touched. Heh.
Then it was near the end of celebration where pastor Daniel started to 'invite' people out for prayers. One of the ushers prayed for me, I think I talked to her before and she's the one with stomach problem because of too much of Caffeine. She asked me about my problem and I broke down.
It was kinda a long prayer.. I cried and cried, she touched where my heart is placed and my shoulder, I felt safe.
As she began to speak in tongues, I felt a hand touching my forehead. A really really huge hand, like a daddy's hand. I'm not sure if it was Holy Spirit, or someone else. When it was near the end of prayer, the hand let go.. I was crying so much more when the hand touched me. Whether or not it was a human hand or Holy Spirit's, I thank God for that hand. It's been an hour and I still feel it on my forehead. It's as if it has never left me..
The usher then told me to trust God after the prayer. She asked me if I'm in a CG and I said yes. She also asked if I told my CG about Natasha but I said no. It's really weird since Pastor Daniel was talking about how CG members can support you when you are in need of people, how they are good companies.. She encouraged me to tell my CG members so I'm gonna do so.
Thank God for today. Thank God for ushers. Thank God for Pastors.
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17/11 - 确认了, Aunt Sally(the one who prayed for me) said it must have been Holy Spirit.
Let's just start with a heartfelt testimony from a youth pastor.
I was supposed to be studying but got distracted by Youtube videos. Today is such an unproductive day. So finally 2 days down; 9 more to go! *shows an optimistic smile* Oh well, I really hope for the best and I've done and given my all so if results turn out to be bad, I will still be really grateful that at least I managed to finish doing them. #mustrmbhowmuchGodhadhelpedme
Well I should really be studying so I will quickly get this done. :P
I wondered a lot when I was eating just now because a drop of sambal just decided to target my left eye. It felt like it was burning and because I'm a person who can hardly wink so I couldn't see. [interesting fact: not everyone can wink so don't take winking as granted!] Well, I could hardly even find my way to the kitchen to wash my eye (ate in the living room because I thought I would start studying but I didn't because the fish I ate had thousands of bones I'm not even kidding). So you may think I'm stupid enough to get sambal to aim for my eye and it had such amazing accuracy. Ugh, then my brother laughed at me when I was screaming for help. He didn't even lead me to the kitchen when he laughed. He only did when my maid came to rescue me. It was really burning I can't even describe how it felt, but thank God it only lasted for a little while! Well uhm, I washed my eye and it became okay.
Then I continued eating my fish. Actually that happened because when I put down my spoon (ungently) one drop of sambal sauce splashed -___- (or skip it if you don't understand).. IT WAS THE FISH. I BLAME IT ALL ON THE FISH. So many bones for what, ugh. Though gotta admit that you are tasty.
It was then I realised that many unfortunate things might have happened to me, but I'm just so grateful for my life.
I wondered what would it be like if I were blind/mute/deaf/mentally retarded.
I've experienced being mute for a few days, blind for a few minutes, and knowing that I was so close to being mentally retarded if I was born a year earlier or so, I truly felt grateful that God granted me a perfect body.
When I had no voice at all, it scared me so much because I wasn't able to talk. I tried to scream but I couldn't. I locked myself in the room, sat alone by the door to the balcony, faced the spacious green field, saw trees swaying in the wind (exaggeration on the view because I can't remember so detailedly), but it was definitely a gloomy day for me. I tried really hard to produce a sound, but if you've no voice, you just have NONE. They said you need to depend on your diaphragm, and so I tried. Nothing came out. Tears were streaming down, I was begging and praying really hard to God that I really wanted my voice back and I then started missing my voice. I wondered if I would ever hear my voice again. My passion for singing was developed since I was young so there's no way that I could accept myself being mute, not even a second. Although you may think it's funny that I was being so emotional but seriously, without the ability to produce your voice, that sucks.
I think this song rescued me because I was listening to it, if my memory serves me correctly.
When I was blinded by sambal just now, my eye was really burning so I didn't think much. But then after it was washed, I thought, what if I were to be blind? I would need a white stick. My world would be BLACK. How worse can it possibly get? I mean seriously, it would be so scary.. This world is too beautiful to be not seen! I may have made it sounded really cliche but that's what I realised.
I wouldn't ask for more.
To know that I would have been mentally retarded if I wasn't born on the day I was born, it left me feeling genuinely & thankful that I should appreciate this life because God has blessed me so much. To realise that I might have needed more attention, I don't know how to feel. There would be two possibilities : 1) my family becomes more broken. 2) my family members bond strongly to take care of me because I need more attention.
I don't know how it would be like but I wouldn't wish for things like that to happen. Although, I think if I stop taking my drugs it would happen.
Ultimately, don't pray that bad things won't happen, but pray for the strength to overcome these 'bad things' God has allowed to happen.
I can't seem to get his information on the internet. So I guess I will share what I heard from him myself.
Physically? He's really tall. MANNNN, superb. He's from Kenya. I'm betting he can run extremely fast (not sure if black people -not being racist here- run fast or just the Kenyans.) - if you're interested in watching them running you can go search on YouTube. Or if you're looking for someone whom you KNOW, go on search for JumbaFund on YouTube and watch how slow Kevin(Kevjumba) ran when he was competing with some of the Kenyans.
And since God looks at the heart, I'm guessing I shouldn't continue talking about his physical appearance.
Well, he's married. (He loves his wife, even his mother-in-law). He loves children. (So he wanted a baby and he tried really really hard. He kept on praying and praying, but still there wasn't any sign showing that his wife was pregnant. So he went on to fasting. 3 days, didn't work. 7 days, didn't work either. 21 days, nope. 40 days, his wife conceived. & now he has two kids.)
He was talking about how prayers have 3 levels.
1) Asking.
2) Seeking.
3) I'm not sure but I think it's something related to the church. Like community praying or something like that.
but it was inspiring, really.
I wasn't so excited about him at first. In fact, I forgot that he was coming. I was so happy that he came. He made everyone's day in church i think. He laughed at his own jokes and I, personally thought his laughter was super hilarious. Whenever he started giggling, people who were listening would just stupidly laugh at his laugh. (like I did - it's irresistible, HONEST.) Anyways, mmhm, I thought today's teaching was great, since it really reminded us how we should persevere 'til the end. He said we need to be tired of a situation because that will be the time when God answers.
You will live by the sword and you will serve your brother. But when you grow restless, you will throw his yoke from off your neck." - Genesis 27:40
Never really knew what this verse meant, but I guess I do now.
We need to get tired of a situation, we need to pray earnestly, faithfully, consistently. I guess he kinda answered what I was curious about. I was really, really curious if I should pray saying that it's all gonna be according to God's will or insist something to happen so that it happens. The bible also says, "ask and you shall receive". If you never ask, you shall never get what you've longed for. & God wants to hear what you want. I'm once again reminded that God is always there to stand by.
He gave an example. He said if we're praying for our family members/ relatives to have a chance to get to know God, we should really pray desperately but not "God if You want it to happen it will". I've always prayed this kinda prayer and I guess God just didn't feel how much I desire my family members to get to know such a loving and faithful God. I know I've mentioned this before but meeting God is definitely one of the best things that could happen in one's life.
Service (Celebration) went on quite long today. It didn't end right at 7pm but I left at 7:20pm (and it still hadn't ended :O) anyways, I went out to the altar today, I thought I should do it because I've been curious, too, about how Holy Spirit works. Many people went in front, all were speaking in tongues, I still refused to follow them though, deep down I knew if I did, I wouldn't be doing the right thing 'cause then I would be faking and lying to myself and God, wouldn't I? I wanted to let Holy Spirit itself does the work.
Apparently, everyone was speaking in tongues and I was silent, but with the desire to let Holy Spirit work in me. I don't know if it did. This was what I felt. I was asking for Holy Spirit to come to me, and I was praying really hard, everyone else was speaking in tongues, (I guess the person behind me did experience Holy Spirit, 'cause I heard a sudden gush of tongues- foreign language - it sounded kinda scary to me since I really didn't know what he was trying to speak and I could feel the power in it, like he was using all his might to speak because I could feel my hair getting a lil of his saliva, apparently. That's how 'intense' he was.) but that's not the point. The point was, after that, I myself felt strange. I felt really, really odd. Keep in mind that I was still praying despite of the distraction from behind, I felt something when he stopped! I really did, although I'm still not sure if it was Holy Spirit working, but when I was praying, my voice was trembling. Like I was just so close to gushing out some words, but instead, I was praying, but with a really, shaky voice. I couldn't control myself. I mean, I really don't know what happened, still. It felt strange, I didn't cry though, this time. I thought I would, but I didn't. The last time when I went to the altar I cried because I felt peace in me, I felt so guilty (or I don't know what it was.. ) I think it wasn't guilt, it was a desire, really - I still thank God for the Aunty who prayed for me (indirectly for my mother).
I've felt so much love from God I just wanna share to the people I love. Without God I wouldn't know how to love, I wouldn't know what is love. God is love.
4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. - 1 Corinthians 13
Anywayyys, BK quiz today and I did very badly. I was really embarrassed and awkward in the morning I was so afraid I didn't know whether I could even go into the classroom to take the quiz since I was the only one who didn't wear school uniform (I didn't even know I should) - that made me felt more not belonged to CF - but I blame it all on myself since I haven't been attending CF lately and I didn't even go for the briefing the other day.
I was so grateful because after I prayed really hard, I wasn't kicked out from the classroom and I managed to take the quiz. Although I did badly (in fact, the worst) I still was glad to meet the Sri Sempurna guys. I was their recorder and two of them trusted me in recording so they came to me during Semi-Finals too! I was so happy and flattered because when I was recording for them the first round I actually calculated wrongly, but one of them still said he trusted me anyway. So happy ^^. Oh, his name is Julian Sya (another one which I'm actually having a hard time trying to figure out how to pronounce) -what on earth, never heard of that surname before. Anyways, they got 3rd in the end! I tell you, that school is crazzzzzeh, everyone in that school who participated know the bible so well. I mean, they were all really good in BK(subjective/oral). ALL. I failed my BK -______- (it was in objective some more) Shame on me. LOL. I didn't get to finish reading what I had to. Always also like that, I'm not even surprised anymore.
;Til now I'm still wondering if speaking in tongues is supposed to be done in church. Hope God will answer one day, uhmm.
First of all, I'll be sharing a song.. which reminds me of God's unfailing love.
Can you even imagine how painful it is to be whipped with so many different weapons, for so many hours?
Can you imagine how it is like to be nailed?
Your head, being worn a crown of thorns?
Being hung on a cross and NO ONE could save you?
Do you realise how much he loves us? To forgive us after all we've done to him. He only ends his life with "It is finished". And right after that happened, we're all saved by God's grace.
Grace, it is.. someone who gives you something that you don't deserve at all. Grace is something, not everyone can have..
Thank God for His son. Really. Thank You.
Thank God that he's resurrected on the third day.
Thank God for the greatest gift of our lives.
Yes, indeed, we were and are the reason He loves us.
I gotta be honest, I only accepted Christ because I loved to worship, without knowing what worship actually means. Now that I know, everytime I worship, is everytime I surrender myself to him, completely. I commit my everything to him and at that moment, he's my everything.
No one can take me away from God nor take God away from me.
He is my almighty God.
Never knew I'd be posting this but I'm gonna post up some PHOTOS.. :)
ah it's okay I'll post it on Facebook.
ZE MONKEY FRIENDS!
And they must have thought we're the weirdest creatures alive.
I just wanna share something, actually a lot of VERY amazing things that have happened on Good Friday night and the days after that.
So it was Good Friday night when my brother finally went to bed (I was in a camp, feeling quite sad because I didn't get to attend two Easter parties but still was very hyper though), anyway, he said he entered to a lucid dream, which was pretty scary, it's like devils were trying to overtake him but Jesus saved him. My brother told me that Satan said to Jesus that, he wants my brother, but Jesus told Satan that He wants my brother to go to Heaven, just one night. And guess what, he did hear God's voice after that. God was telling him, "Money is the root of evil, if you want to work, work for experience but not for the amount of money you can earn." (something like that). All my brother could think of and feel was that his soul is somewhere else and that he couldn't move his body.
It's so amazing that my prayer was heard. He's a changed man, and I really pray that he'll continue to be like this and that God will change the people around him through my brother.
My brother became so good and (not to say VERY holy) but his faith is seriously so strong that I'm shocked. He told my mom and I the story yesterday. BUT guess what happened to me after that.
I slept at 10 something, and I woke up this morning at 6am, my iPod was just on the table beside me. (I was sleeping on my living room's couch btw) And I saw Jesus Christ's picture once I on the lock mode. Then I was guessing like.. okay it could possibly be my brothers who've changed it, or Julian, who's the changed man I mentioned. But when I asked him, he said he didn't. And after school just now, I called my another brother, Jeremy to ask if he's changed my wallpaper, he said he didn't. Who could it possibly be? When no one else in my house knows how to use it. It's not my dad 'cause he wasn't home the whole night, it's not my mom because she doesn't even know how to unlock an iPod, not my maid when she's a Muslim. Not me, cause I NEVER slept-walk before. It's just like that. (and fyi I didn't have any wallpaper before that). It kept me wondering if it's God who did it, as it's quite funny when God knows how to use an iPod, it's just amazing, you know? I didn't put in any Gospel photos on my iPod, just Gospel songs because I just had my iPod past few days. Unbelievable amazing!
Another thing, my brother just borrowed a book from his boss (his new boss which he thinks God wanted him to work for -- and side story, his boss chose him to do some photoshop thing on the computer when no one else knows HOW to do it, no one else among the 20 workers in the company) anyway, the book is called 'God and Legions', he borrowed it WITHOUT reading the description behind, basically he just borrowed it because the cover looks nice (it does), and guess what he just randomly read the description today and the story, now finally he knows that it's about Julian, a sheltered scholar and pacifist lives in peace-until a summons from Emperor Constantine the Great changes the young man's life forever.
And which amazingly cling to my brother's life because he's a sheltered scholar and until God changed his life forever. And he thinks God wants him to read the story book.. :) Now, I'm really really really glad and I thank God that He heard my prayer. I prayed for my brother because just previously, we were arguing about Lady Gaga's Illuminati and if he should listen to her songs or not. I was the one who disagreed to the max and he said it's nothing. We were arguing until my mom was quite pissed off and I broke down. The next day, there was a CF meeting so I told my friends about it and they asked me to pray about it and told me that God will surely hear. Days past by and I was feeling quite.. not to say unfaithful but I didn't pray as much.. I went for CF camp, amazingly, Pastor Victor was talking and preaching about family, and if you know me well enough I actually have LOTS of family problems which I actually keep them as secrets because everyone has secrets that only God knows. Anyway, all I was praying is that my family will be more like a family, soon. And I still believe God will change my family's lives. Everyone's.
How amazing can it not be when God's just SO NEAR me? My brother's bringing his whole lots of friends to church this weekend. And he's wondering if he should get a tattoo which obviously a no from my mom, but I (and his Christian friends) asked him to seek for God's permission first.
He's REALLY a changed man. He waited for me today because I was about 20 minutes late from Benedict's house(we had practice for this Friday's Easter's sketch) NORMALLY, he would scold me until I cry but after this whole thing, he just changed, completely. He never said anything or showed me he was pissed or anything. I'm so happy he changed, to be a better person because of Jesus Christ!
And I still can't believe my prayer actually worked, and that my iPod has a Jesus Christ_Shepherd pic as my wallpaper which was changed automatically like Idk, it's just so amazing I can't stop crying because of happiness. (I'm not crying now but I was when I was telling Kyleen a part of the stories)..
Amazing, it's just so amazing!
The pic looks like this :
Anyway the reason he feels that God has touched his life is that he's stopped working(giving out poker cards) at some very - the place where you're not supposed to go to, a place where people gamble - My mom disagreed because recently there were many cases about polices trying to break in and catch illegal gambling, but he just DIDN'T want to listen to her. And God just said one sentence and it changed his whole life. He's never gonna work there, and he's gonna preach, at least now he thinks God's using him to share about Christ! :)
I'm sure you already knew what day today is. It's the last day of 2011. Every single person in this world is looking forward to it, except the one who is blogging this post. Not because it's gonna be the end of the year.. oops, *day* (which I don't believe it, really, who's the one who acts like he's a prophet?), but.. it's because.. REALLY, I don't wanna freaking study.. oh my gosh. Talking about studies, you guys should've already known how much I got right? Honestly, my parents don't seem to be satisfied although they said they're quite happy with it.
Anyways, I'm just here to talk about #cilipadicamp.
I have three words to describe it.
It was awe -wait for it- some! Okay byebye, the end of this post.
Hehehe, nope, it's not the end yet. I'm supposed to talk about this year.. Yes, interesting events(okay, they might not be interesting) that had happened this year.
Things I'm not happy about this year:-
• Uncle having his nerve ruptured.
• Cousins' grandma passing away.
• Cousins still not talking.
• Transport problem. (#mostannoyingone)
• Pn. Molly taking a month of leave.. because she fell down from stairs ): .. I wasn't that happy, I guess.
• Joining KRS.. ._. (Honestly, but okay, dang it, I did.. & I gotta make KRS better next year!)
• Etc.
Saving the best for last, okay, maybe not last, but.. next? Hmm..
Things I'm VERY happy about this year:-
• Joining CF.
• Joining CG.
• Joining Leo.
• Going to church almost every week.
• Being more faithful in God.
• Knowing God better.
• Getting to know CG friends & leaders. (Jehanne, Sarah, John Stefan, Valerie, Pinky, Allison, Shin-Min, Johann, Jaedon, Bryan, etc)
• Going to cili padi camp, definitely!
• Having known what I'm interested to be when I grow up.
• Etc.
Oh well, well. Actually there were a lot of things to be happy about this year. Except sometimes I got emotionally easily. I pray that I'll change my attitude next year, really.
So what now.. I had many ideas to blog just now, but I just forget everything........ okay, uhmm..
Cilipadi camp
You know I felt really bad when Ryan Fong said this..
Everything we do that is not of God is not for God.
Then I thought of myself not joining LEO for God, at least I never thought about God when I decided to join. But today, -I've no idea if it's because today is the last day or what that I think super a lot of things about God- I figured, joining LEO is not for God, but joining LEO & getting a post in LEO club is definitely God's work. He wants me to serve His people, to love His people.
Joining CF, it wasn't entirely for God too, it was because everyone said it's fun, and another reason was because every friend of mine was a CF member, or at least, they still are.
I have something else to confess. I didn't become a Christian entirely because of God. I think I was form 1, I went to LOUD concert 2009 and accepted Christ, I wasn't an active Christian, and worse, I wasn't really a believer. I just heard of the stories, and yes, I was kinda affected by my brothers. So then.. I think.. before I accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord & Saviour, I had conflicts with my Standard Six classmates & my mom. My friends insisted that they wont return me my money. They said it's me who wanted them to take the tickets. They just wouldn't wanna pay. And then I got scolded by my mom continuously/subsequently every month. She'd mention about it and I'd just break down in tears. I started praying to God.. I started thinking that God, is the only one who was with me, and didn't punish me or whatever, he's always the one who forgives me. He's always the one who doesn't leave me alone. God didn't give up on me, but He gave me a chance to serve in Grace Nursery Church. Thank God, that was the time I started learning more about God through the kids.
And then after a year, I decided to start trying out church. Oh did I mention one of the reasons I became a Christian was because of the worshiping part? How they can sing out their lungs, surrendering to God, committing themselves to God.. They don't care if they're out of tuned, because all they want to do is to worship the one and only God. And thank God my faith got stronger. & finally, I'm now a believer!
I thought I didn't have plans for tonight, but ended up I have one, which I'm gonna go to the place where my mom usually sings to earn some side income. It isn't a bad idea after all. At least I can focus reading because I won't have anything else to do. I thought of going to church, but sigh, I'm gonna be all alone. Another thing I don't like is that my parents aren't Christians, not Methodist, at least.
Yesterday was the first time EVER in my life to work. HEHE. It was so fun. I got scared when my brothers said the job was tough for them, but it wasn't like that for me. HEHEHE. At least I enjoyed.
Yay I'm going out with Jo Ann soon! It's gonna be awesome! :D
A song for you, HAHAH, random but who cares right? I love that song so much. Although I don't know what it means. ._.
Have a happy new year!
2012 is gonna be legend -wait for it- dary! :) (omgosh guess what, I just typed 2011 instead of 2012.)
It's 4:01am, I better blog as fast as I can so that I can go to bed right after this. You must be thinking I'm crazy.. Awake at this hour just to blog. I've been wondering the whole day (well, maybe not the whole day) but does everyone speak in tongues? 'Cause really, I feel so left out to not know how to speak God's language. ):
Sigh, it's okay, I believe the Holy Spirit will really fill me one day, then that will be the day I speak in tongues. (Y) I actually have a testimony to share! Or two..
The first one would be.. Well, say hooray because my mom allows me to go to church. I wondered why so I asked her. She said even if she doesn't allow, we(my brothers and I) still will go to church, no point stopping us from going because we wouldn't listen to her anyway. Then she continued.. She said actually it's okay to join any religion, 'cause every religion teaches you to be a good person, as long as I'm good, it's okay to go to church. I just wanted to tear up just now, but of course I didn't. It'd be weird.
And, I was all so happy when my mom said she wanted to fetch me to church. I feel like God's really good to have given me an understanding mom.
I went to church today, learning that, no matter what our parents did in the past, we MUST still forgive them, 'cause a person who doesn't love his/her parents will not be Jesus's disciple. (maybe I didn't learn it, I was just being reminded.) I've always been complaining about my parents.. maybe I shouldn't, but who will understand my situation.. Well, except God Almighty, but is this how He tells me to forgive? I shall ask Him one day in Heaven. :)
The second testimony would be.. stay tuned. (I know,I know. I always say stay tuned but never come back to it. I promise I will, k?) Clue: it's about why I chose Jesus Christ, but not others.
A lot of prayers, maybe you think they are unanswered, but maybe God has already answered, just that you don't know that's the answer.. but I really do think God's asking me to be considerate.
It just makes me to bring this up, oh.. my goodness, Erica and Edwina, how can they be so stubborn? I mean, I seriously will get all stressed out if they don't talk anytime soon. It's been more than 2 years, and nothing is changing. (Well, maybe everything is changing except them not talking to each other?)
Sometimes, I think it's all God's work. (I mean, it IS all His work) Everything happened after they started to be like this.. Yeah, grandma had stroke, uncle got unconscious, grandma passed away, etc. But why, until now, they still don't realise it?! I really thank God that my uncle is okay now.. At least God heard my prayers. (Or others prayers too..)
I didn't even get them to talk again.. When I was assigned to, by my uncle.. Oh well, let's not talk about this. Maybe I'm just too useless/busybody.
How about some pictures of chocs? :D
You must be wondering why I'm like 'obsessed' with this brand of chocolate and why I took so many pictures of every single type of it. Actually, maybe I shall reveal it now. The reason I eat this so much during this holiday is because it's gonna be expired soon. -_- I know. Kinda in my 'appreciating' mood. Oh, and also 'not-gonna-throw-it-in-the-garbage-bin-because-it's-expensive' mood.
How about meeting Oreo's brother - Stereo? :)
It doesn't taste that bad, actually!
Pictures on Thursday .. when we were practicing Christmas songs? :)
Li Anne :)
They are pretty cute together. HAHA.
Snack of the day! LOL.
Aiyah! Too bad I didn't take a picture of the Maggie Mee I cooked for Zhan Yeh. It really looked bad!
HOW ABOUT SOME VAIN PICTURES OF ME?! MUAHAHAHA.
I took these only because the sunlight was too nice. LOL! eleh, excuse. but really, the sunlight that day was ♥. LOL LOL, me so special, hair's yellow when sunlight shines on it. (I know other people usually get brown hair, aiyah, too common lah!)
Woohoo, just painted and cut my nails yesterday.
Sorry for being so artistic lah. Natural talent. :P (two colours if you see it clearly.)
I was reading my bible yesterday night and I found this verse interesting. - Psalm 92:1
Today, the preacher Pastor Dennis Balcombe was surprisingly good! Valerie, you.. should regret that you dumped us for Janda Baik family trip. HAHA. But still, I hope you are having fun sleeping now. :D
I shall talk more about him, shan't I? He knows how to speak Mandarin and Cantonese. He's so good at it, (for an Ang Moh). He even explained all the Mandarin famous scriptures that some I didn't even understand. I felt kinda ashamed, actually. HAHAH, but anyway, he's one of the preachers who didn't make me nearly fell asleep, despite when he was telling us history of China.. I pray that God blesses him and lets him continues to serve Him. In Jesus name I pray, Amen. :D
Bye.. In advance.. because I'm......
not forgetting to end this post with awesome pictures taken by the awesome me. :D
Too random ahahah! Blame the sunlight. (NO, please don't, I hope it shines right to my house again! It's lovely.)
Just sneezed loudly and grossly before publishing this post. -_-
I was just curious about something and so I asked her and she freaking answered me like this :"Why? Does it even concern you? Do you pay for it?"
Yes, I may not be the one who's going to pay it for you, but do you need to use a touch screen phone when you're supposed to work?
Even if you have to use a good phone, I was just curious, I thought your current phone was in a bad condition, I was just asking what you're gonna do after getting a new one. And right, you're so right, after having your own radio, your own phone, your own number, you want more. Now you want to change to Maxis and a better new phone, and yes, an Android. And yes, after I explained everything about the new phone you answered me rudely as if I were your biggest enemy.
You have a radio and you want another one in order to fulfill your noon-and-night-shift-radio-thing. So you were answering me exactly like this : "The radio's for afternoon, current phone's for night, because I'm too lazy to put the radio on. The new phone is going to be only for texting and calling." TROLOL. Yes right, I bet you'll be using it 24/7.
You know, actually a maid, having a phone is already the limit, but she claimed for another one, a new touch screen phone. I know it doesn't really concern me and I didn't care if she really does change to a new touch screen phone, I was just pissed off about the way she actually answered me rudely.
Anyway, I promised God that I won't use the computer today because He did something awesome, but I broke my promise because I wanna blog about the phone thing. :( I'm so sorry. But anyway I'm also here to share my testimony! :D I was with Fiona after school. We were in Pn. Tang's office. After everything it was already 1.20pm. I went out from school with Fiona and realised there was no one waiting for the bus, not even the only guy who went to school by bus today. So I thought I had missed the bus again. So I was telling Emily that I would rather walk home than to be a weird girl who carpools her van to go home, but I decided to wait for a while before walking home. Emily was begging me to not walk home and was offering that she could ask her transporter to give me a ride. I refused to, so I said no. Then I prayed. I then heard my bus's noisy sound. (not exaggerating, you can hear my bus's sound from a thousand miles away) The bus driver drove towards me. Yes, I think you guessed it right, I was so jelly-burgerly happy that I screamed "Thank you Jesus" my lungs out, words definitely cannot describe how happy I was. I jumped and nearly fell down but I could be the world champion for jumping so badly, I'm sorry to say that but I was too happy. God is so awesome! :)
I gotta off and sleep like a pig now. Goody goodnight.
Oh and Father Lord please bless me and my friends during the exam week. I really really hope we'll all get straight A's. Please God! Give us strength, supports and guide us spiritually. In Jesus name I pray, Amen!
Wow, the difference of a letter r in a word is BIG. It was supposed to be 'worst b'day eve'. Not 'worst b'day ever'. :/ I bet I must have made everyone worried about me. But you know what's best? :) This year's birthday! :D Seriously, everything turned out so well. I'm SO satisfied about everything. Except the truth that I was being a jerk who made every one of my friends worry. Trust me I WAS BEING SO JERKY yesterday, even jerkier than the jerkiest person alive. I was so tired of everything, stressed out about PMR and stuff. I'm sorry for what I've done.
I'm gonna be honest, I was crying the few seconds before 12, but I was smiling all the time after that, even till now. I realised that God didn't want me to learn the 'never trust anyone else except Him' thing, He's only teaching me that, 'you can still trust your friends, your best friends, but as long as I put Him as the first, it'll be okay.' I mean of course it'll be okay, God is the wisest God ever :) The only God. The trinity God. The alive God. :D Also, I've learned to NEVER use my bro's laptop because the keyboard sucks! It's the keyboard which made me typed eve as ever -.- Thanks la thanks, mr. keyboard.
This was supposed to be last Friday's post, but I was too lazy to update that day. So here you go. My favourite food :D
First, you need my kakak's secret recipe for sambal.
Cut mushroom, turnip and carrot into long pieces.
Cook it. (Almost forgot to write this, you won't eat it without cooking it, will you?)
Some vege.
Put them together like this.
Wrap it like how you wrap a present. TADA. You can now have my favourite food.
Lamest recipe ever :P
Love this song.
I accidentally found this song, enjoy :)
Lunch with family for my birthday.
Dad's. Spaghetti.
Mom's. About RM 35 I guess. Red wine pork.. whatever it is.
Er, bro's. Lamb.
Eldest bro's. Red wine beef? (whatever it is!)
Mine! Chicken Chop :D
Some random egg which we didn't like.
I prefer Pizza Hut's :(
Me! :D
So yeah, I'm officially fifteen! :D
THIS IS WEIRD HAHAHA. CAMWHORED a lot :P
Anyway, just acting cute, as usual. :D
Fish braid.
13/9/11.
From Uncle Mike, dad and.. Jonnath (I'm confused, is this from your grandma or what? Is the bracelet from you.. or from your grandma? :O)
From KYLEEN LEE. :D
It's VERY ADORABLE like me. At least it's what she said :P
THANK YOU VERY MUCH. I'm so glad I met you. I'm serious.
Or else I'd be all alone last year.
And this year.
You're a GOOD, SMART, CUTE, MEAN (sometimes, just because I'm mean to you :P).
May God bless us in PMR and SPM, all exams, and that we'll NEVER forget each other in the future, and that you'll bring your child to me when I become a pediatrician :D
From Jonnath Tan Wai Joon! :) His drawings are freaking cute. HEHE. There are something else inside. SUPER CUTE :)
I wasn't confused just now, but come to think of it, I think I took the wrong picture, is the angpau from your grandma or this? I'm REALLY confused oh my gosh)
but anyway, thank you very much to both of you and your grandma :)
OH NOW I KNOW. 'use it however'. Omgosh why did your grandma give me money? :O
This is weird. BUT THANK YOU GRANDMA :D
(sorry for arranging it to the wrong thing, I didn't think so much.. )
From Siew Chin and Siew Yoong.
Thanks both of you. ♥ REALLY THANK YOU LAH. See thank me for taking it so nicely :D
I know I'm cute *winks.
Thank you Amar for the pens and Hui Mei for wrapping it. :)
Thank you la Hui Mei, shouldn't have told you what I wanted last year -.-
And you still remember it. SO GOOD.
cards.
THANKS people. :) Zooming in to thank personally. :D
Stay tuned! :D
FROM LEE JING WEI.
This little chili padi made me cried, tears of joy.
Her creativity (38ness) can reach the boiling point of water. I'm serious.
She's freaking 38! HAHA, 'cause she's the leader of it.
THANK YOU smartie.
Be doctors together someday ♥
One of them didn't go to school today.
Really a piggu.
Thank you piggu.
Hmph piggu.
THANK YOU XIU LING ♥
Be together forever, aight? :)
Monkey Sexy Leng Lui Twin brother.
Happy birthday to you too.
The most perverted person I've ever known.
Birthday wish also sounds wrong. Pfft.
Thanks la! At least got something :)
Sorry for taking it so blurly. D:
Thank you Seen Ying ♥ You're the first person who wished me in school :D
Jing Wei is a pig hahaha :)
*pushes nose to show a pig's nose*
Thank you Wan Teng :)
You also be leng lui forever kay. :D
Send my regards to Puan Wong. HAHAHA. :)
Thank you CHERYL LOW :)
Like your poem inside. :D
Jae Jin forever? Or FT Island forever? :D
Actually I don't have a favourite food la. Too many nice food. :D
I just like to eat rice!
(not brown rice)
From Felicia Lee and Yong Suet Mun.
The two very pretty girls. :D Thank you!! :)
Stay pretty and smart.
blur :/ sorry. Thank you Melissa! :D Let's be semangat for Leo kay!
And stay smart and pretty. Like you always do. You're so gentle and nice. And hardworking :)
Already said yours :) Lawyer Lee Law Yer's future wife! HAHAHA.
Thanks again!
First card I received after I reached school :)
THANK YOU YONG LE ♥
Thanks FIONA! :D
Stay smart! And blur! AHAHAH.
I've never seen you getting stressed out before.
Wonder how you study.
Always got 90+ for Sejarah!
SO SMART :)
texts & calls. (official.)
Before 12.
#1.YEWHAN the PIGGU.
#2. JonnathTan the sketcher :P
After 12.
calls.
#1. Lim Hui Mei the cute girl ♥ (right at 11.59pm but wished me when the clock strikes 12.)
#2. Jonnath Tan (12.04am)
messages!
#1. TYS
#2. Xiu Ling
#3. Jonnath Tan
#4. Lee Suet Er
#5.Siew Yoong
#6. Hui Mei
#7. Siew Chin
#8. Jeremy Chee
#9. Theres Kuku (happy birthday to you too)
#10. Marcus Lye (with a belated wish, hahaha)
#11. Papa.
#12. Aunty Cecilia.
#13. Michelle Chee
#14. Edwina Yeoh
#15. Lih Jia
#16 Uncle Mike
#17 Lee Jing Wei
And this list is useless. It's not the matter of being the first to wish, I mean, I'll be VERY HAPPY if you even remember my birthday. Seriously.
Not being too particular about the placing..
Can't reply texts anymore, no credit :(
By the way, THANK YOU SO MUCH, PEOPLE, FOR MAKING MY DAY :)
Here's a hot guy for you. HAHA
(I don't know what this thing is. But it's in my youtube subscriptions page.)
Thanks also to everyone who wished me.
Including Puan Surita :)
THANK YOU.
Happy birthday to Sir too. Hooray. I shall off. I've been blogging since 4 hours ago. LOL.
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