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Once and for all, it's gonna be a long post, be prepared!

It's rare to not be blogging overnight on the 31st December, which is I guess, great, to be not spending my last day of 2013 with the computer but with the churchies and God. It was definitely a memorable one.

I'm super blessed to have Caryl as my friend, basically she had her parents to send me to church for watchnight. Also, she played a huge roll in bringing me to Christ. I remember it was the musical thingy going on in my church in 2010 if i'm not mistaken, 2009 was still LOUD but I don't think I went out to accept Christ until a year later. I really did enjoy myself during LOUD and I remembered meeting Ian Tan (whom I called daddy - because he was with Caryl back then) for the very first time.

180 musical was good, but I didn't expect myself to accept Christ. All I remember was the whole gang went in front to say the sinner's prayer and BADOOM TADA. Although I was still quite blur about what was really going on and didn't continue churching then but I still loved the songs being played at home everyday. (Brother was that religious teenager who would blast Hillsong's songs every single day!) Until Kyleen patiently talked to me about Christ and I knew about the Bible having 66 books etc. I decided to follow my brother to church some time in 2011 and surprise Kyleen by going into her CG without informing her earlier. HAHA. I remember how shocked she was and she had her eyes wide open. Jehanne was the leader, Sarah was the assistant leader, John was the helper. Sarah wasn't there that time though, and Kyleen and Valerie were telling me how I SHOULD meet Sarah because she's that giggly girl who laughs ALL THE TIME, or rather, her laughs just make you laugh too! Now that I'm reminiscing the past, I kinda miss Sarah's laugh. Jehanne left, John stepped up to be the leader. John left, Ashwin came. Now that Sarah has left, Ashwin is leaving in a week's time to France. We're leaderless, but that shouldn't be the reason to stop us from going to CG (although I nearly did).. After yesterday's dinner (chilli pan mee YAY!) I was seriously impressed that Caleb was beginning to open up himself to be a leader, which was good. But all thanks to Valerie actually, she played a big part in telling what she really felt about the merging of CG.

I guess things are better off to be said honestly. Things are getting better in CG. Worries that I have once worried don't matter anymore. I guess introverts just take a super long time to feel comfortable around extroverts. Thank God, 'cause honestly I've been praying for the CG.

I'm getting long winded anyways, I was celebrating the last day with Caryl and her family, and I went to Kayu for Supper with the churchies (including John, Ashwin, Joel, Sara, Amanda, etc) and I even met Pastor Gilbert, Pastor Chris, Ian Tan and Hui Wei, oh oh, and Ken Vyn!! :D Also Bryan Loh 1AM at Kayu ahahha!

Oh I brought Aaron(Kan) to church too! His mom didn't let him to go clubbing with my brother (I understand the reason behind because he's now the only child) but I still can't really compromise how she wanted my brother to be the bad guy. That, out from a mom, is understandable, but you allow your son to hate my brother but cannot accept that one day your son will find out. I guess what I remember most is that sentence you said to me with that annoyed face: "Your brother is not the bad guy, I'm the bad person okay?" And turned away as if I deserved that sarcastic lecture. How on earth would I know that you will use my brother as a shield so that your son won't hate you? Although it's understandable that you did it all because you wanted it good for your son, but how would I know, seriously?

Anyways, John sat in front of me, Ashwin and Aaron beside me. John was asking about my purpose in life. I stoned for not only a while, but a very long time and tried my best to avoid the topic but he threw an even tougher question to me. It's about what he had taught me and what I'd learned from it. I seriously couldn't remember anything except predestination. D: But anywaysssss, silly me, I thought Ashwin wrote me a letter but it's a letter I wrote for myself in the beginning of 2013 but I forgot. I was screaming at home saying how sweet Ashwin was HAHAHAHA! Too funny!

I went to school the next day and Thiam Joo ditched me for lunch with Sir! And then I went to One Utama for a sudden shopping with Siew Chin and Siew Yoong HAHAHA! I was supposed to be having my nap! :P

Thiam Joo came to my house to do some work and we got to know that my brother used to be his sister's high school friend. Then he stayed back to play FIFA with my brother and Aaron when he was supposed to go home, but that's not the main point. He brought his gf to my house the next time he came and that's really why I'm talking about this!! It was the most awkward day in my life I swear. ._. What did I do to deserve that LOLOL. Sorry lah, but it's just so weird to be a lightbulb for them. It's already weird enough that I've been lightbulb for both my brothers. Ahhh, I'm gonna make 'em all a lightbulb for me and my future boyfriend one day as a revenge! HAHAHAA!

So things were better after they left, definitely.

I passed my Undang! Although I still couldn't beat my mom and my brother's score! Boo! But thanks to be God seriously, I only started doing the 500 questions at 12AM. I only slept two hours in the end, *sobs* then slept the rest of the day after the test hahaha!! Bengkel last Thursday and fortunately Seen Ying was there too! Too blessed to have a friend with a surprise presence!

And yea, that's almost all why I have been MIA for a while.

But I left out this one thing, which is...

TADA!



I guess I will have my New Year Resolutions in another post! Hang in there, you guys!

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Got quite encouraged by one of my friends. A friend whom, I knew for pretty long.
So this is it, guys.



I hope I sound better than the last video. Thanks, ciao.

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I set it as unlisted. So readers, feel appreciated because this can only be seen by you people.. Privileged people..? :)
Sorry for the out of tune,okay? I'm not a professional nor an expert. (Don't they mean the same? o.o)
And because I only upload a video of me singing once a year..

And I'm not gonna say this to scare you people away, but. ._.
Is the cupboard in the video moving or is it just me??? :0 (I'm sure YouTube did something when I agreed to let them 'stablelise' my video.. Hmm

Are you WAITING for my 'LLC day three' post? 'cause I think it will only be up by Monday! Hold on, k? :)

BY THE WAY, I will be also posting about my reunion with my standard five & six friends and also the Christmas party I've gone to in Norman's church! (My looooooooooong lost BEST friend. Yea it's a guy. Trust me it's not weird to have such relationship with a guy, because the way I treated him was so.. unimaginable harsh but he NEVER gets angry. So nice, right?)
1. I slap him every time I see him, EVERY SINGLE TIME when he starts talking. (on the shoulder tho, not in the face) - then you don't call it slap? Smack then? Or PIAK. AHAHAHA I so CINA (OR, OR audiofied/soundified LOL whatever lah.)
2. I chased him around until both of us got super exhausted (or was it always just me who was running like crazy?)
3. I shout at him when I talk to him.. (should it be in a past tense form? 'cause I think I've become more polite now. LIKE A LADEYHH. yea man)
4. I kick him. (I don't think I kick everyone so...)

K la long story short. He's the only one I can be so ganas to. Even after two years of not meeting each other I still treated him the same way in the Christmas party. Gotta be more ladylike. I thought I wouldn't behave like that anymore. Failed.

And more to go. Stay tuned for upcoming posts! Good night!

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Figured I should blog about school since it's already like the fifth day of school, the sixth day tomorrow. It's like I was away from this state since forever, and not like I really did leave this state.. I literally died on the first day of school.. I was so tired and all, of course the worst thing was that I wasn't prepared for form 4, still am not.

Maybe it's because I still think I'm a form 1.

I hate how I'm not smart enough in that class. Everyone else's smartness can reach level 10000, but mine? Don't even think about it. Okay la, I'm not trying to degrade myself.. but TRUE STORY k.

Maybe it's because I have my own expectations.. Expectations that are higher than anyone else? (Except for people like Jing Wei & Fiona? I mean their level of smartness are like unbeatable, so..)

So yes, maybe you are wondering what class I'm in now..

4A.

Okay la, not that it's bad.. but the people in it are like...
Not that they are nerd.. (Maybe some of them are..) but still, I can't even..

Okay dang in, 4A, new friends (& old friends), new life, new start. :/

I swear every single person on this Earth has their own new year resolutions already. Therefore, I'm gonna post up mine too.

•Attend CF camp 2012.

•Attend Youth camp 2012.

•Be a better person.

•Get a DLSR/ better camera.

•Get chosen for youth exchange!

•Get to do revolutions for school.

•Get to know more about Jesus ♥

•Get to share about Jesus's grace ♥

•Read God's words everyday.

•Take good pictures.

•Uncle to be fully healed.

I guess, that's all? They are all more meaningful compared to last year though. :D

Tuition everyday. :(
READ ALL THE BOOKS! , no.

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