I prayed to have the courage to go out to get prayed for Natasha..

It was hard in the beginning.. I knew how sad I was deep inside but I was still trying to watch YouTube videos to cheer myself up. No, I'm not depressed. Don't worry. It's just that I wasn't so happy but I had to put on a smile to usher people in. I felt really glad to see Mei Yi (one of my CG members who is also an usher..).. And I thought I had no one to count on.

I'm so grateful to have my CG members despite feeling so tired to fit in. I didn't want to ask to save them seats today so I decided to not look for them. But God still brought Mei Yi to ask me where I was sitting anyway..

Then we (the young ones!! ROAR) were giving out bulletins to the churchies! I had to pretend to smile for a while in the beginning. Wasn't a good start but still got through. I'm also thankful that William (the KRS guy! - forgot his surname oh no!), he asked me how was SPM oh maiiii!! How does he know my age @.@ I was really shocked, honestly. Oh, before that happened, Le On the tall guy was standing beside.. Therefore we formed a Taman SEA line hahaha!! I didn't realise until Li Yen (Chong) mentioned. :p I felt so love because they are such friendly people and I genuinely started to feel happy. Though Mei Yi kept mentioning how I should wear high heels when I stand beside those two tall guys especially when they are 30cm taller and I look really petite in between.. !!

To be able to sit with my CG members.. I felt happy too, I mean this time I really didn't have to try to fit it since Cheryl Tham and Jenna are two of whom I can be who I am with. As for Lu Zhong, I'm starting to feel ok plus I knew he's sad last night so I asked him about it and I guess he felt a little bit touched. Heh.

Then it was near the end of celebration where pastor Daniel started to 'invite' people out for prayers. One of the ushers prayed for me, I think I talked to her before and she's the one with stomach problem because of too much of Caffeine. She asked me about my problem and I broke down.

It was kinda a long prayer.. I cried and cried, she touched where my heart is placed and my shoulder, I felt safe.

As she began to speak in tongues, I felt a hand touching my forehead. A really really huge hand, like a daddy's hand. I'm not sure if it was Holy Spirit, or someone else. When it was near the end of prayer, the hand let go.. I was crying so much more when the hand touched me. Whether or not it was a human hand or Holy Spirit's, I thank God for that hand. It's been an hour and I still feel it on my forehead. It's as if it has never left me..

The usher then told me to trust God after the prayer. She asked me if I'm in a CG and I said yes. She also asked if I told my CG about Natasha but I said no. It's really weird since Pastor Daniel was talking about how CG members can support you when you are in need of people, how they are good companies.. She encouraged me to tell my CG members so I'm gonna do so.

Thank God for today. Thank God for ushers. Thank God for Pastors.

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17/11 - 确认了, Aunt Sally(the one who prayed for me) said it must have been Holy Spirit.

Labels: prayer, Testimony