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Money is not the root of evil, but the love of money is. The flesh is good, but the lust of flesh is not.

I feel extremely awesome to have been spending my past few days in church. Being able to serve a living God, whom we call Father. I find it super duper cool to be calling the creation of the world Father. For by the Spirit we are all adopted to be His Sons and Daughters. Isn't it great also that we are Jesus' brides? I find that super amazing, I mean, I feel special.

I have been an usher for a year plus now but I think I haven't been doing a good job. It's true that I fear to offend people but I have never realised how sometimes as an usher we should be doing our job, yes, firm is the word I guess. It's okay to be asking people to move. I mean that isn't hard. I've learned my lesson, I hope.

Sigh I was just quite emotional to be said I wasn't doing my job by a person, who wanted what's best for herself. But I was fine with it, I was really okay though I got distracted by it while worshipping, but in the end I guess I was just too touched by the Spirit. I was crying my eyes off I couldn't stop, I couldn't sing too, but I felt so thankful for whatever He has done. So thankful. I was also very shocked how Pastor could sense that there were people with Thyroid problem and that God wanted to heal people with that problem. My jaw literally dropped.

I couldn't feel anything on the first day but the message on the first day was so great! It was about David's life. How he was a rejected son because when God wanted to anoint a king he asked Samuel to go to Jesse to look for David. David was out in the field, his companions were just sheep and other animals, you name it. He had no one, he had no instagram, but he had God with him. He trusted in God although he could have been feeling so broken. He had his 'target practice' when he was in the field. God then anointed him as a king. He then was asked to fight Goliath, a dude who was nine feet tall. He won in the end. It was such a good message, isn't it?

Even when the enemy might look like a giant, when we have God, we are stronger than we think we are. (Even when circumstances may seem huge, but we shouldn't be intimidated by them because we have a God who will help us through.)

Also, Pastor Henry(from Grace church) was saying how we can go through circumstances because we know the end result of it. Malaysia still has hope because the Kingdom of God stands forever. We, just do our part to continue to be obedient children of God! :P

I attended the conference on the third day! (YAY! Thanks so much to Chee Hong who got the band from his neighbour for me :P) Pastor Daniel was sharing how his family members didn't agree that he decided to go full time for God after coming back from UK for further studies. He then told us a story about a person struggling because his mom didn't let him to get baptised. He asked for a few years and finally decided to be baptised but before that, he wrote a letter to his parents. He wanted to be near God, but he also wanted to honour his parents this way. It was the best decision, I mean, we should really put the journey with God above all else.

I could relate, I could relate because I have my mom who doesn't allow me to be baptised too. I think she would probably chase me out of the house or something if I really get baptised, but I'm praying each day very hard, and I know that the Lord loves her as well.

At night, it was time for rally and this time I think I did quite a good job(I hope) and there were overflow rooms so after some time we didn't have to be worry about how some people still haven't gotten their seats anymore. :') but 2nd day was practically a chaos. D':


Anyway on the third day, things got better. And this time the Spirit was so strong. We were asking for more of His Spirit. Pastor Russell declared that Malaysia is gonna be changed after that night, and we believed so. He then started to pour water on a worship leader's head, and that person fell on his knees RIGHT AWAY, his head was on the ground. We were asking for more, we kept worshipping, until a few second after we stopped singing, people were laughing, falling and I was suddenly speaking in tongues. It was so divine. I mean I couldn't stop. I was just so happy I was overjoyed. I felt so much of Him. My soul was rejoicing. Even when I was crying on the second night, I was at the same time laughing.

My soul was happy. I wanted more of God.

It's true also how Pastor Russell said the devil has been trying to brainwash other people to make them think that Christian gatherings are boring(and we ourselves tend to fall into the trap), but nope, not at all, in fact we should be the happiest people who party every day because we are spiritually satisfied. We are having party on Earth because that's what happens in Heaven too. People have misconception that heaven is a quiet place but nope, in Heaven, they worship 24/7. Angels sing when someone accepts Jesus as Lord and Savior, when a lost sheep is found.

They are having party every second in heaven, a place which is only filled with milk and honey, love, joy, eternal happiness. Heaven is home.

And I, I am definitely awaiting that one day to say "I have finished my work on Earth and I'm going home now to You, Lord," with full excitement. The amazing difference between Christian and other religions is that we actually look forward to return to God, all in all, we were actually from Him, now it's just a period of test for us, isn't it?

Labels: Testimony

I think I forgot to mention that Pastor Chris has become Deputy Senior Pastor right? :D So I was trying to tell my brother that this afternoon and he couldn't understand me 'cause I pronounced deputy wrongly ahahaha!! #OhMyEnglish I always thought it's pronounced at dee-pew-tee but nope, it's actually deh-puh-tee. D: I think I was laughing more than my brother did after that.

Labels: Reminder, Testimony

I guess I just have so much to thank God for.

Although it's a reality that leaders are leaving to pursue their studies I'm glad to have seen how the younger ones in NextGen or aiya, i just say the name lah.. I'm glad to see Caleb to rise up as a leader. It's quite overwhelming to see how he's all out for God after youth camp. I was kinda surprised how he suddenly became so active in CG, honestly speaking.

Then he explained today that he had practically no free time throughout last year and he's quite busy this year too. How he really wanna prioritise Christ this year and how he sees prayer so importantly now. He's also started to open up himself, I guess? It definitely requires huge courage to be sharing what you don't even tell you bradaas(close buddies in school) but CG members. True enough that most friendships last longer when there's a spiritual connection involved.

For example, Caryl and I? She brought me to Christ, that's how we connected and recently she was facing some problems and we got pulled back together because of Christ again. It's amazing how things turned out, and the fact that we are even closer than before, just amazing. I guess it's just how it goes when you bond with a person spiritually, truly amazing that it's indescribable.

It's kinda sad though, that she's leaving, but I do pray that she'll do well in her studies in Aussie. No matter how long she will be there I really pray that this friendship lasts.


A note to Caryl, not sure if she will read this but..

I thank God so much each day that I've Him in my life, but you definitely have no idea how thankful I am to have a friend like you. Although you said you didn't do much but this just shows us how important it is to just do our part, to just try our best to invite people and let God do the work in them. I've never expected that we would become this close after so much we've been through in these five years but I'm thankful that after all that has happened, we finally know who our true friends are. Just like what Pastor Chris said today (to be precised, yesterday), all sufferings only happen because He wants to shape us for the betterment, to be a stronger person. So I pray and hope that in the future, no matter what happens, if you can't find anyone that you can talk to about your problems or anything, I'll always be here available for you! Also, let's strive to seek God deeper, and also not forgetting to keep each other accountable, because being in one body (of Christ), it's important to always look out for each other. We sure won't want anyone of us to fall out from His goodness, and I'm sure this can only come true if we really spend time praying everyday, to guard our hearts, this can only be done through Him and by Him."

K this is awkward I just saw a rat right in front of me. It's huge and I don't know where it's hidden now. I hate rats ugh anyway..

Please do keep in touch k, love? :) ♥


UGh so stupid that rat just ran under my chair. I think my house is not suitable for CG anymore lol. Guess I just have a-too-amazing neighbour who never keeps his garden clean. :') So much for cleaning up I'm so glad to have him ugh NO!! I don't know where it's hidden now again!!

Let's just go back to seriousness or else I'm going crazy.

Anywaysssss, something amazing happened today I don't even know what to say about it. So miraculous in a way. Uhm, actually I drifted my mind away during the prayer in the morning because I was kinda worried how I might not be able to commit myself in YouthAlpha 'cause I'm guessing it will be during the weekends. I guess God shouldn't have answered me through Fiona but He works in amazing ways! (because I was being disobedient hahaha! Not focusing during prayer :P) So after the Alpha training in the morning. Fiona sent me message through Whatsapp that her dad's friend would like to hire someone who teaches a kindy kid for half a day.. Since that boy has only just started his kindergarten so the parents wanted someone to make sure that he's doing his homework and all. (let's pray that he won't turn out to be a naughty child)

And then I called the lady, I'm still quite surprised that I actually opened up to her honestly about everything and I hope she didn't mind me talking too much ahahha, 'cause the fact that I called her she didn't pick up and she called me back I might have already caused her to spend quite an amount on the phone bill hahaha!! But she was nice! She told me that it's located at Bangsar and if you know me well you'll know that I have transport problem 24/7. Then this lady said she will contact the parents and pass her my contact number. So be it, if it's God's will, it will happen.

I'm actually depending on Him a lot lately, especially in making decisions. I've decided that if Form 6 shifts to the centralised building, then I will choose early childhood (or even foundation/A-levels in Science) depending on my results! Which is good, definitely, to be able to depend on Him I feel so safe. So I think people were quite shocked that I looked less worried than they did ahahha!

I want to make it a goal this year to just surrender all my problems to Him, and be less worried.

"We're giving it all away, away, we're giving it all to go Your way!" I guess this sums everything up? :)

Coming up..
 1.There will be night rallies (CONCERT!!) this coming Thursday, Friday and Saturday by Planetshakers (Not some *CHAPALANG* band but they're all the way from Aussie!!) Do come if you wanna be hyped up for concerts! It's FREE! Not a concert person? Nevermind! You'll enjoy yourself nonetheless! Don't worry about being awkward 'cause everyone is very friendly hehe! Oh! It'll be held at DUMC, Dream Centre! Do tell me if you're interested(or FB/Twitter/Whatsapp - I have practically everything!)


 2. There will be a YouthAlpha Launch Party on the 15th of February (Saturday) for Teens from 2-4pm ; 16th of Feb (Sunday) for Campus students from 8-10pm. It's a party so don't be afraid to mix around! There'll be FREE FOOD! What say you? It's FREE!!  Do come, it's at DUMC, Dream Centre! Do tell me if you're interested, too!

 SHARE THIS IF YOU WANT TO BUT I HOPE YOU COME ALONG AND HAVE FUN WITH ME, US, EVERYONE! SEE YOU!

Labels: Church, Testimony

It feels odd not having New Year Resolutions. I think I should at least write them down because I've been wasting my life away for the past 11 days.

• Walk closer to Christ, grow deeper in Christ, spend more time with Christ.

Labels: Reminder

Once and for all, it's gonna be a long post, be prepared!

It's rare to not be blogging overnight on the 31st December, which is I guess, great, to be not spending my last day of 2013 with the computer but with the churchies and God. It was definitely a memorable one.

I'm super blessed to have Caryl as my friend, basically she had her parents to send me to church for watchnight. Also, she played a huge roll in bringing me to Christ. I remember it was the musical thingy going on in my church in 2010 if i'm not mistaken, 2009 was still LOUD but I don't think I went out to accept Christ until a year later. I really did enjoy myself during LOUD and I remembered meeting Ian Tan (whom I called daddy - because he was with Caryl back then) for the very first time.

180 musical was good, but I didn't expect myself to accept Christ. All I remember was the whole gang went in front to say the sinner's prayer and BADOOM TADA. Although I was still quite blur about what was really going on and didn't continue churching then but I still loved the songs being played at home everyday. (Brother was that religious teenager who would blast Hillsong's songs every single day!) Until Kyleen patiently talked to me about Christ and I knew about the Bible having 66 books etc. I decided to follow my brother to church some time in 2011 and surprise Kyleen by going into her CG without informing her earlier. HAHA. I remember how shocked she was and she had her eyes wide open. Jehanne was the leader, Sarah was the assistant leader, John was the helper. Sarah wasn't there that time though, and Kyleen and Valerie were telling me how I SHOULD meet Sarah because she's that giggly girl who laughs ALL THE TIME, or rather, her laughs just make you laugh too! Now that I'm reminiscing the past, I kinda miss Sarah's laugh. Jehanne left, John stepped up to be the leader. John left, Ashwin came. Now that Sarah has left, Ashwin is leaving in a week's time to France. We're leaderless, but that shouldn't be the reason to stop us from going to CG (although I nearly did).. After yesterday's dinner (chilli pan mee YAY!) I was seriously impressed that Caleb was beginning to open up himself to be a leader, which was good. But all thanks to Valerie actually, she played a big part in telling what she really felt about the merging of CG.

I guess things are better off to be said honestly. Things are getting better in CG. Worries that I have once worried don't matter anymore. I guess introverts just take a super long time to feel comfortable around extroverts. Thank God, 'cause honestly I've been praying for the CG.

I'm getting long winded anyways, I was celebrating the last day with Caryl and her family, and I went to Kayu for Supper with the churchies (including John, Ashwin, Joel, Sara, Amanda, etc) and I even met Pastor Gilbert, Pastor Chris, Ian Tan and Hui Wei, oh oh, and Ken Vyn!! :D Also Bryan Loh 1AM at Kayu ahahha!

Oh I brought Aaron(Kan) to church too! His mom didn't let him to go clubbing with my brother (I understand the reason behind because he's now the only child) but I still can't really compromise how she wanted my brother to be the bad guy. That, out from a mom, is understandable, but you allow your son to hate my brother but cannot accept that one day your son will find out. I guess what I remember most is that sentence you said to me with that annoyed face: "Your brother is not the bad guy, I'm the bad person okay?" And turned away as if I deserved that sarcastic lecture. How on earth would I know that you will use my brother as a shield so that your son won't hate you? Although it's understandable that you did it all because you wanted it good for your son, but how would I know, seriously?

Anyways, John sat in front of me, Ashwin and Aaron beside me. John was asking about my purpose in life. I stoned for not only a while, but a very long time and tried my best to avoid the topic but he threw an even tougher question to me. It's about what he had taught me and what I'd learned from it. I seriously couldn't remember anything except predestination. D: But anywaysssss, silly me, I thought Ashwin wrote me a letter but it's a letter I wrote for myself in the beginning of 2013 but I forgot. I was screaming at home saying how sweet Ashwin was HAHAHAHA! Too funny!

I went to school the next day and Thiam Joo ditched me for lunch with Sir! And then I went to One Utama for a sudden shopping with Siew Chin and Siew Yoong HAHAHA! I was supposed to be having my nap! :P

Thiam Joo came to my house to do some work and we got to know that my brother used to be his sister's high school friend. Then he stayed back to play FIFA with my brother and Aaron when he was supposed to go home, but that's not the main point. He brought his gf to my house the next time he came and that's really why I'm talking about this!! It was the most awkward day in my life I swear. ._. What did I do to deserve that LOLOL. Sorry lah, but it's just so weird to be a lightbulb for them. It's already weird enough that I've been lightbulb for both my brothers. Ahhh, I'm gonna make 'em all a lightbulb for me and my future boyfriend one day as a revenge! HAHAHAA!

So things were better after they left, definitely.

I passed my Undang! Although I still couldn't beat my mom and my brother's score! Boo! But thanks to be God seriously, I only started doing the 500 questions at 12AM. I only slept two hours in the end, *sobs* then slept the rest of the day after the test hahaha!! Bengkel last Thursday and fortunately Seen Ying was there too! Too blessed to have a friend with a surprise presence!

And yea, that's almost all why I have been MIA for a while.

But I left out this one thing, which is...

TADA!



I guess I will have my New Year Resolutions in another post! Hang in there, you guys!

Labels: Singing, Testimony