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knowing their stories behind them just makes me feel so blessed. I mean, it's amazing how God is able to make things happen so that a person's faith can be made stronger. I'm so glad these servants of His, who are stars, put God as their first priority especially Jeremy Lin, not being prideful about their achievement but being proud about their God who has helped them through all things.

why not just take a moment to thank God for creating you in a unique way(whether your looks or who you are?) It's really amazing how each is different and God knows EVEN the number of your hairs on your head, that just, calms my heart so much, whenever I feel belittled by the world's judgements, I just feel so blessed to have known this God, who never forsakes, but whatever He does, He knows it's for our best.

Things may happen, a life of Christian is never said to be easy, but, we have a God who makes all things possible! It's such a blessing just thinking about it!

Pastor Chris was sharing just now and if you didn't know he's really one of the nicest pastors (I mean all the pastors are nice - so far those whom I have met- lol) but he's just a different case, he's so nice and I just like him so much when he sings especially ahhaha and when he preaches and also tells jokes and when he talks about God's Words, though I bet he probably forgot my name but that's not what matters because Ky said he might be an ISFJ, *cheers*, ISFJs reunite!

Anyways he was sharing about Sesame Street just now and he changed the lyrics of one of the songs there, which is:-


He changed it to "one of these people is not like the other, which one is different, do you know? Tell me which one is not like the other and I will tell you if it is so.." (assuming if he were to pick 3 non-christians and a christian from a workplace) Pastor Chris is so hilarious and he says he's still watching Sesame Street, he also reveals his age every time he preaches, tell me how can you find such a cute pastor lah AHAHAHA? ^^ but, the main message was truly, heart warming.

Mhmm our enemies are the flesh, the world and the devil. That's the main thing I've got and learned and shall make it into practice today but I just wanna say today's sermon was too good. Pastor Chris. ^^


I just watched a 'testimony' about a Christian with the title of 'How Christianity Led me to Islam'. I gotta be honest that I was initially kinda scared to even spare myself a chance to confront with this kinda religion-related stuff. I never wanna let myself be drifted away because deep down I know what the truth is, but as I encountered what I had encountered just now, really, my faith in God being the Trinity, just, became stronger. Thanks to be God, I prayed before I watched the video, that God would reveal, the truth.

It's sad, it's really sad how a person can be led to what he thinks is true because he thinks he knows a lot about his previous religion. He mentioned how he was a Catholic, from a family who DOES NOT practice it, apparently. Never gone to church except on Easter Sunday and Christmas Day annually. He was from a Catholic primary school, he claimed how he knew what was truth but from what I heard, 17 years of being a Christian, he really doesn't know a lot. I'm really not claiming that I know a lot, in fact, I know very little, very very little (and I wish to learn more about my amazing Lord and Savior) but the reasons of him turning to Islam didn't convince me at all.

Firstly, he didn't know that Jesus was mentioned in the Quran, and he was really amazed by that, that all the prophets in the bible were mentioned in the Quran. That's more like, he didn't really have any conversations with his Muslim friends when he was young, I think. Secondly, he said he decided to open up the bible one day and found out that the bible said Christian men shouldn't shave beard(means to leave beard to grow as it is). Yes, it's stated in the bible in Deuteronomy, but the laws were for Moses's time. Apparently he didn't and maybe still doesn't know why Jesus Christ came to die for us - the old laws for Moses no longer bind us, but we still keep the Ten Commandments.

I, myself was actually not sure about the Ten Commandments. I'm not sure to consider myself as a new believer because I know so little, but I've learned so much from my CG leaders, especially from John. That was really an eye-opening for me. Anyways, click here if you're interested. :)

Thirdly, he claimed that he has lived long enough to be a Christian and knows ALL the ten commandments, well you know what. He said people were worshipping idols and statues, well, I guess some people do, but that doesn't make all the Christians do the same. Fourthly, he said Muslims follow all the laws they were asked to follow, hmm yea I gotta be honest that they do, in fact my Muslim friends do, but for Christians, faith comes first, then deeds. (See James 2) Oh and, we're not bound with laws, because our Savior has taken it all when he was hung on the cross. So it's really all up to us, to fast or not, we're not forced to, because if you have faith, you will eventually fast? I'm not saying that they are forced to, but.. some Muslims really fast sincerely, with faith, strong faith. And I gotta admit that I'm impressed. Some of my Muslim friends are really nice, I can't deny that fact, but that doesn't make me or anyone wants to turn to Islam because of how nice they are. That just doesn't make sense.

Okay, maybe I should be more understanding, because the title of the video is "how Christianity..." not "how Islam..." I thought for a few hours after writing what I've written above and realised I'm a little unreasonable myself, if I wanted to watch then I should have known from the beginning, even before the video starts that he will be giving false teaching about Christianity, or, what he doesn't know about Christianity to claim that he was a Christian and how good Islam is for him to convert, because whatever he says just brings false messages to people and I feel sad. I don't know if I'm feeling the right way.

But anyways, last Saturday's CG was da bomb since there was a discussion about whether primary judgement is a sin. Well there were two sides, it is a sin/it is not. So I've done my researched and I found one really really good one. And it has been explained. I seriously thank God for that.

I gotta keep reminding myself to pray for the truth every time I search for something. Hmm.. so is it right to judge? Click here to check out!

I also need to remind myself to keep going back to the Word and not judge based on what others have experienced. Experiencing yourself definitely makes you wiser, I guess? (I don't think wiser is the right word to describe, I guess experiencing something divine yourself feels much more real?)






Okay I'm a clown. That's a chipmunk version of me on the left and I gotta admit I'm super adorable with a chipmunk face. BAHAHHAHA. So adorable! With a dimple! And then a normal one on the right. Man, my face is getting very holey (maybe not holey but spotty) with all the pimples on my face I want to cry ahahhaha. Actually no lah I don't really care until everyone says I'm on my puberty already like finally ahahahah!! Okay I've been "hahah"-ing too much I need to stop, like a siao person laughing all the way through I need to replace them with emoticons. Wait.

It scares me a bit, or other people since I don't really shop. My brother shops more than I do. I just never shopped alone, throughout my whole life, yes. I came to realise I need to be more feminine  but hehe actually I'm kidding I actually don't care about that too. I only started ranting about it *without actually wanting to rant about it* because I saw the cute emoticon I just posted hahahhaha. 8D

I'm just too bored so guys let me spam here a bit okay.

I haven't been studying ever since I said I wanted to work hard. Just bleh, what can I do to make myself study man. I've been watching movies. I've downloaded super a lot of movies oh my gosh I'm so happy but sad inside because it doesn't make me want to study but watch movies all day.



I downloaded Shrek 2,3,4 too; Star Wars I-IV; Lord of The Rings Trilogy; The Incredible Hulk and oh my gosh I have so many other Marvel movies to catch up and guess what seriously I need to stop myself from all these I'm dead for trials AND SPM, but #marvel4lyf.

I've been watching a lot of YouTube videos lately too. *shoot me with a sniper please* WHAT CAN I DO OH MY GOSH TRIALS IS SHO NEAR BUT I'M HERE SLACKING SO MUCH I'M REALLY DEAD MAN. T.T

Chipmunk me.  *facepalm*

What worse is that I slept 8 hours in the morning went downstairs to have my breakfast then slept again for 4 hours until evening. YEAAAAAA THAT'S FRIGGIN ME.


Yellow peepo, my dream was poopie this morning, by poopie I really mean that it has got a scene about some unknown guy accidentally pooped in his pants and I have yet to find out who, and as stupid as that may sound, I did a dumbest thing in my dream —I decided to smell it, but what makes me smarter is that I didn't do a close up smell of course, but it was the smelliest poop ever. Err.

I know you're disgusted, but bear with me.

I've now decided to put emoticons to make my blog a little big more colourful. HAHHAA. So hello! I like this penguin, so QQ, and because its name is actually QQ.  *it's laughing if it's too tiny for you to see*
Anyway, I've said on Twitter that I will not touch for 33 days and it includes  and , it's a huge impossible for me but I'm gonna do it for myself, I'm gonna do it for God so that He can grant me determination to study. I know by praying to have strength and determination without doing anything to overcome and avoid all the distractions is what's happening to me. I really need to get rid myself from all the social network except  and  of course, but I really hope I won't be tempted of course. I felt at peace but another part of me actually was sadden because 33 days of fasting is actually until 15th of September. Now that it's that way, only true friends will wish me through whatsapp and text messages. *let us all experience life without Facebook and Twitter again*

Unfortunately I started this one week late. This fasting is actually done every year by many Christians in Malaysia for many years already. It's called the "NECF Malaysia 40-Day Fast and Prayer". It scares my mom a little bit when her colleague told her that she's fasting 40 days. 40 days without food (but water is allowed of course) - I seriously am impressed by their faith.

I know that Muslims and Christians aren't that different because their Quran and our Holy Bible have something in common, like if I'm not mistaken, the Old Testament, and we truly believe that there's only one God, a mighty God who can do all things. Muslims do believe in the existence of Jesus Christ but they don't believe that He was the Messiah sent by God to purify our sins. Then I don't know what on Earth happened back then, there was this prophet who apparently, appeared and *well you've learned all from Sejarah Text Book already*.. I felt it was a little bit unfair for us Malaysians to study what the other religion believes about, I mean, for religions like Buddhist, Hindu, even Christians.. why on Earth do they needa be blended in too right? If they are interested then they will find out more about it themselves, no? Okay I may have sounded rude, but I just don't understand, and I wasn't mocking any religion, I hope I didn't. So forgive me for if I've offended you in any way.

Anyway, back to fasting! I felt like all these social networks especially Facebook, Instagram and Twitter which is updated every second by the people you add/follow can really kill you slowly from the inside out, like it takes time to kill you. Every time you log in, you will take like 10 minutes and you do that every half and hour so it practically takes 3/4 of your day to check the updates, but don't worry peepo, I'm still gonna update my blog because this only takes 2 hours a day (and that's if I feel like updating it) which worths the universe. Now I can convince myself that I've fully spent my entertainment time and should get back to studies the rest of the day. Which reminded me, what I cannot deny is that Guitar and Keyboard are big big distractions too. The good thing about playing a guitar is that your fingers will get sore and that's it for the day. Keyboard, on the other end, 'cause I really suck at it so I give up easily. :3

Matthew 6:16-18 ESV -And when you fast, do not look gloomy like the hypocrites, for they disfigure their faces that their fasting may be seen by others. Truly, I say to you, they have received their reward. But when you fast, anoint your head and wash your face, that your fasting may not be seen by others but by your Father who is in secret. And your Father who sees in secret will reward you.

-literally contradicting myself 'cause I kinda told the whole world through Twitter already. D: and that verse sounds more like fasting food though...

Let's do this!

You will live by the sword and you will serve your brother. But when you grow restless, you will throw his yoke from off your neck." - Genesis 27:40

Never really knew what this verse meant, but I guess I do now.

We need to get tired of a situation, we need to pray earnestly, faithfully, consistently. I guess he kinda answered what I was curious about. I was really, really curious if I should pray saying that it's all gonna be according to God's will or insist something to happen so that it happens. The bible also says, "ask and you shall receive". If you never ask, you shall never get what you've longed for. & God wants to hear what you want. I'm once again reminded that God is always there to stand by.

He gave an example. He said if we're praying for our family members/ relatives to have a chance to get to know God, we should really pray desperately but not "God if You want it to happen it will". I've always prayed this kinda prayer and I guess God just didn't feel how much I desire my family members to get to know such a loving and faithful God. I know I've mentioned this before but meeting God is definitely one of the best things that could happen in one's life.

Service (Celebration) went on quite long today. It didn't end right at 7pm but I left at 7:20pm (and it still hadn't ended :O) anyways, I went out to the altar today, I thought I should do it because I've been curious, too, about how Holy Spirit works. Many people went in front, all were speaking in tongues, I still refused to follow them though, deep down I knew if I did, I wouldn't be doing the right thing 'cause then I would be faking and lying to myself and God, wouldn't I? I wanted to let Holy Spirit itself does the work.

Apparently, everyone was speaking in tongues and I was silent, but with the desire to let Holy Spirit work in me. I don't know if it did. This was what I felt. I was asking for Holy Spirit to come to me, and I was praying really hard, everyone else was speaking in tongues, (I guess the person behind me did experience Holy Spirit, 'cause I heard a sudden gush of tongues- foreign language - it sounded kinda scary to me since I really didn't know what he was trying to speak and I could feel the power in it, like he was using all his might to speak because I could feel my hair getting a lil of his saliva, apparently. That's how 'intense' he was.) but that's not the point. The point was, after that, I myself felt strange. I felt really, really odd. Keep in mind that I was still praying despite of the distraction from behind, I felt something when he stopped! I really did, although I'm still not sure if it was Holy Spirit working, but when I was praying, my voice was trembling. Like I was just so close to gushing out some words, but instead, I was praying, but with a really, shaky voice. I couldn't control myself. I mean, I really don't know what happened, still. It felt strange, I didn't cry though, this time. I thought I would, but I didn't. The last time when I went to the altar I cried because I felt peace in me, I felt so guilty (or I don't know what it was.. ) I think it wasn't guilt, it was a desire, really - I still thank God for the Aunty who prayed for me (indirectly for my mother).

I've felt so much love from God I just wanna share to the people I love. Without God I wouldn't know how to love, I wouldn't know what is love. God is love.

 4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. - 1 Corinthians 13

Anywayyys, BK quiz today and I did very badly. I was really embarrassed and awkward in the morning I was so afraid I didn't know whether I could even go into the classroom to take the quiz since I was the only one who didn't wear school uniform (I didn't even know I should) - that made me felt more not belonged to CF - but I blame it all on myself since I haven't been attending CF lately and I didn't even go for the briefing the other day.

I was so grateful because after I prayed really hard, I wasn't kicked out from the classroom and I managed to take the quiz. Although I did badly (in fact, the worst) I still was glad to meet the Sri Sempurna guys. I was their recorder and two of them trusted me in recording so they came to me during Semi-Finals too! I was so happy and flattered because when I was recording for them the first round I actually calculated wrongly, but one of them still said he trusted me anyway. So happy ^^. Oh, his name is Julian Sya (another one which I'm actually having a hard time trying to figure out how to pronounce) -what on earth, never heard of that surname before. Anyways, they got 3rd in the end! I tell you, that school is crazzzzzeh, everyone in that school who participated know the bible so well. I mean, they were all really good in BK(subjective/oral). ALL. I failed my BK -______- (it was in objective some more) Shame on me. LOL. I didn't get to finish reading what I had to. Always also like that, I'm not even surprised anymore.

;Til now I'm still wondering if speaking in tongues is supposed to be done in church. Hope God will answer one day, uhmm.

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