bernicecheee. Name♔ Bernice Chee Wai Yee Nickname♔ Ber Age♔ Eighteen(2014) Birthday♔ 13th of September Height♔ Too short to be revealed Weight♔ Around 40kg. Nationalist♔ Malaysian Race♔ Chinese Religion♔ A follower of Christ & a child of God :)
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"Are not five sparrows sold for two cents? Yet not one of them is forgotten before God."Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Do not fear; you are more valuable than many sparrows. - Luke 12:6-7
So, I just kind of argued with my brother.
I hate my rage, so so much. SO SOO SO MUCH.
Everytime I talk to him I'll be like.. talking in a way like I'm annoyed.
I don't know why I'm like that, seriously.
Can't I just speak nicely?
Thing is, I know, deeply inside me, that he's changed. He's changed by God. He doesn't smoke or does anything bad anymore. He's completely hated sins. And everything is because we have a God who forgives.
And I just remembered last week Sasha was sharing that "If God could send His son to die for our sins just because He loves us SO SO SO MUCH, when we apparently don't deserve it at all, why do we get pissed off by little things easily?" Yes, why am I sinning? What's wrong with me? My wrath is like.. overtaking my mind, it's so scary.
It's true that he's changed and he's sharing Christ with my parents, his friends (who are still smoking).. My dad promised to go to church with him every week but he didn't. (I didn't know about that since I wasn't in hospital after the accident happened).. This afternoon my mom was busy settling some income tax thing for herself and my dad's.. She was complaining how my dad always leaves these stuff for her to do and all.. Well that was after she came back with my brother from Post Office (to settle some road tax thingy).. my brother was sharing about Christ to her and wanted my mom to trust him that it wasn't 'that' drink that caused him to have voices in his mind. He told my mom that he would read the bible to her every night when she goes to sleep. And my mom is the kind of person that hates people who are so desperate to share.
I told my brother to stop annoying my mom 'cause I'm scared she'll get more annoyed and then she'll ban me from going to church or something like that. I'm so selfish. I told him that he can't expect everyone to believe him when everything is between him and God as Christianity is not a religion, it's a relationship with God alone..
But he said I don't even attempt to change my mom.. and said that he wasn't forcing my mom to accept Christ but just trying to share with a soft manner. He also said that I was trying to stop him from changing my mom.
It's true though, that maybe I'm not desperate enough to change my mom, I always thought when God wants her, He'll do something to make her believe in Him.
I really really don't know what to do since I was told to NOT encourage my brother to do anything dumb like who knows if he'll go bang the wall again when he hears voices? I just didn't tell him directly that I trust him..
I don't want him to have the idea that he can do anything when I trust him.
But that was when he broke down, saying that he's very sad because my dad didn't do what he promised, none of his friends trust him when one of them actually witnessed the accident.
And that was when I broke down and he left the house. I prayed, asking for help, and I truly believe that He's heard my prayer and that He'll give me an answer soon. :) I thought of CG, that I've to lead worship tomorrow, I'll be singing "heart of worship".. and so I started singing that song.. until I reached the part - "I'm sorry Lord for the things I've made it, when it's all about You, when it's all about You, Jesus." I felt REALLY REALLY bad for everything I've done, for my rage... everything.
First of all, I'll be sharing a song.. which reminds me of God's unfailing love.
Can you even imagine how painful it is to be whipped with so many different weapons, for so many hours?
Can you imagine how it is like to be nailed?
Your head, being worn a crown of thorns?
Being hung on a cross and NO ONE could save you?
Do you realise how much he loves us? To forgive us after all we've done to him. He only ends his life with "It is finished". And right after that happened, we're all saved by God's grace.
Grace, it is.. someone who gives you something that you don't deserve at all. Grace is something, not everyone can have..
Thank God for His son. Really. Thank You.
Thank God that he's resurrected on the third day.
Thank God for the greatest gift of our lives.
Yes, indeed, we were and are the reason He loves us.
I gotta be honest, I only accepted Christ because I loved to worship, without knowing what worship actually means. Now that I know, everytime I worship, is everytime I surrender myself to him, completely. I commit my everything to him and at that moment, he's my everything.
No one can take me away from God nor take God away from me.
He is my almighty God.
Never knew I'd be posting this but I'm gonna post up some PHOTOS.. :)
ah it's okay I'll post it on Facebook.
ZE MONKEY FRIENDS!
And they must have thought we're the weirdest creatures alive.
From left to right, up to down.. Iron Man, Captain America, Hulk & Hawkeye and Blackwidow.
So yes, guess who has already watched the so far best show in 2012. IMDb's rating for this show is 8.9/10, who would ever expect that the rating would be higher than Inception(8.8/10)? Though Inception had higher rating last time. And I can't believe the rating for X-Men: First Class is just 7.9/10.. It's proven that The Avengers is good, so you better go and watch it in the cinema NOW!
Marvel's movies are forever COOL and AWESOME. I'm just too impressed. Although after the movie I had to walk home alone from Kelana Jaya station, it was still worth it. Worth much more.. I'm so happy that I'm escaped from the movie tickets thing. I've been traumatized by movie tickets before this, that's why I didn't volunteer to book tickets until all my friends were like .. didn't have the time to book.. so I did the job and I was still afraid.. but not so since they're like my best friends.
Anyway I went to Mid Valley with Kyleen, Zoe, Justin and Ian Zhan and of course it was a great experience because honestly, I've never sat on a public bus before. I didn't spend much though I was telling all of them I wanted to buy a gift for Fiona but ended up didn't buy anything. Felt sorry for Zoe that her mom was scolding her already, and Kyleen to skip her tuition for us. But it was all worth it, isn't it? :/
Anyway, we were rushing home and I realised guys DO shop longer than girls do! ahahha. Or my friends and I just don't like to shop. -_- We're like.. super abnormal girls who don't shop. My brother once said I'm not a girl since I don't go out to shop for clothes. I mean, I was born to wear those clothes passed down by my brother (mainly pajamas-es) and those which my mom thinks they look nice so she bought it without even asking my opinion. And sometimes when I go out with her she'll be like.. YOU WANT THIS SHIRT?! and I'll just look like this:-
well, with a "okay". I mean, if someone wants to buy something for you of course you say yes right? In addition, since you're not the one who's paying it. I sound weird and selfish and greedy like this. HAHAHA!
Okay back to the avengers, JUST A FRIENDLY REMINDER here:
STAY 'TIL AFTER CREDITS!
Not here to prank you but just do it 'cause you'll regret if you don't. I saw people going out before credits and I just felt bad because of their impatient-ness. Anyway, just stay. :)
And no Zoe I won't forget to end this post with your dearest..
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Wait, this post hasn't even ended so please stay.
SEE, it's a practice for you to be patient until after credit. :P
Exams are coming soon, so soon that I regret for not starting to study. I always get that feeling before exams but I just don't study regularly, it's just not me! Sigh.. My teacher said that I have to be a nerd in order to score A-pluses. :/
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