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I remember how Sarah mentioned how we should always be convicted because of what He has done. I'm just so thankful that in 2010 (if I'm not mistaken), I accepted Christ. One thing I can be sure of is this - that accepting Him into my life is one of the greatest events that had happened in my life.

But, today, it wasn't a very good day for me, although I'm still really thankful that I'm alive, but I do believe that tomorrow will be a better day.

What you do today is important because you're exchanging a day of your life for it. Let it be something good!

I'm not sure where this Felix got it from, or maybe it's originally from him, but it's inspiring so I share it with you people. ;)

Well, what really happened today. I actually got a little bit disappointed to know that all my tiny little post in each club doesn't help me to achieve anything from the outside. Deep down I know what I've gained -experiences- are more than enough to replace the certificates, glory, etc, but honestly, i was just a tiny bit disappointed. Then, I just didn't really care about it and moved on. I got a little sad to know that I'm actually VERY VERY short #ohmygoodnessjellyburgerfishcake when I had to position myself as the 3rd person from the back and had to stand right at the side during CF photo taking session. I then, honestly, just wanted to kill myself already (kidding) - I was trying hard to tip toe hoping someone would rearrange the position but meh, i was just torturing myself. What I was really sad about was that, when Rueben was so shocked that I was a committee member in CF. (One of the worst things that can happen is - your presence never fell - which it also sadly means you haven't been doing anything that's why people never noticed you until, photography session.)

That was the moment when I started thinking how I've done so little for each of the society I'm involved including my house, because (one of the reasons I've found for myself to feel a little less guilty) I really couldn't concentrate on only one society, I tried my very best to even out so that each society gets some of my contributions but unfortunately it really means I'm irresponsible for all the jobs I should've done but was too lazy/ busy to do them.

It's funny how people say my height is fun size but I don't really agree with it. I'm still striving to grow taller. I mean, how can anyone so short live. (Not like I need to be dead either) - I just really need to be at least, a little bit taller than I am now.

So what really makes me sad today? I was kinda sad I didn't feel belonged in CF. I guess I know how Vui Yean feels? The whole bunch of Form 4s were almost glued together, it felt so much like they didn't want anyone else to interrupt them having their fun times, so whenever you try interacting with them they will give you the cold glare. Okay lah, I shouldn't generalize, Jen Yee, Sophia and Edward are reasonable people. I don't know, I just felt so bad there. But when I got back to class and I saw Kyleen, I was kinda grateful then.

And I was grateful for the guys in my class too. They have made me raised my voice, but they have, nonetheless, also made my days with their laughters. (I feel like they are trying hard to impress other people with their really lame jokes - which I never laughed at. -____- although I know their desire is to have their jokes get laughed at.)

I think I'm done here since it's 12:05am already.

I hope the promposal tomorrow (later) will go smoothly. I'm so excited although I know the answer is probably a 'no'. ;) *winks.






"Be who you are, be proud of who you are."
"The best way to get revenge on bullies, is to fight back with your accomplishments."

Being a person who doesn't have adipose tissue and zero fats, she's titled 'World's Most Ugliest Woman'. Although her life has been tough, it has never been easy for her but because of who she is, she's able to transform lives.

I'm glad that she didn't give up but instead, set goals and achieved them.

I'm so inspired.





Hi, I actually thought of creating a new blog but meh. I'm too lazy to.
I'm too lazy to do anything right now so yea. Just leave me alone.

I should really quit every social network I'm involved in so that I can concentrate on my studies, but I can't bear losing any of them. Boo. I spam my Twitter everyday so I think everyone is annoyed (not really - I don't really care what people think of me now hehe, kinda inconsiderate but who cares)

Did I mention I was obsessed with this guy (although I never wanted to admit it) for a period of time. Yea. That's my life so far.

It all began with this video.


What did I do to deserve this? HAHAHA kidding.
Meh. Actually I was kinda obsessed with that song by Boys Like Girls and I decided to click on covers because I felt sad for Boys Like Girls. They deserve to be more famous but unfortunately that only happened a few years before I really liked them, but it's okay. I shall keep them to myself. And then TADA, i stumbled on to Lawrence's video so.. I started looking out for him because I somehow had an instinct that he could be a Malaysian so MORE REASONS to stalk, no? What more when he actually mentioned that he loves God more than anything else in this world in his description. Loves staying up late and procrastinate a lot- win. Internet addict-I am too. small eyes-I didn't mind, really. YEA MAN. Then my guess was right, he's a Malaysian. How did I find out? I really did my research okay? (I'm glad he kinda reveals everything on Twitter YAY!)

Let me tell you how I did my research.
I began searching for 'Lawrence' on Facebook but unfortunately there are too many Lawrence(s) in this world so I couldn't find him. And *lightbulb-ting* I searched the exact same Youtube name on Twitter and saw a person with that username too - that was the 'delightful' moment when I found out his username was 'Kiing' and didn't know how to pronounce it so I proceeded constantly reading his tweets. I got to know he is from Sibu then, and not to mention he's a pharmacy student studying in UCSI in KL (which lives so near me, but far too because I can't drive yet).. Which reminded me to think about my future. (I wanted to be study pharmacy before I met this guy) so I went to UCSI's website and found out the cost for the course and it's actually cheaper than any other uni which offers Pharmacy in town. (So yea, I thought it was God opening the door for me to pursue Pharmacy 'cause I really wanted to take up Medicine but it's too expensive and mom limited me to take up Pharmacy). -Deng deng, I'm still not quite sure what God wants but I will trust in Him no matter what happens. (I'm praying really, really hard)

So yes, I was really surprised to know that he was going to Famine 30 too. What really happened was.. I swear when I stepped into the stadium gate I gave up looking for him. Okay la, if you count peeping around then I didn't really give up. But honestly after my group leader called me up to tell me we're going in to the stadium already I gave up looking for him. Funny how things only appear when you really give up looking for it. So yes, he appeared when I was about to leave. It was really surprising when one of my friends told me UCSI was coming in from the gate which was nearby us. So of course I wouldn't so stupidly miss the chance so I started looking for him again and I saw him. He was the group leader I guess 'cause he was like almost right in front me me when I turned to look at UCSI campers. I was so amazed at that very moment by what I was actually seeing, but I chickened out when my friends asked me to take a picture with him. I'm glad I did take up the courage to talk to him which I really don't normally do and didn't want to do because I was really nervous. I was so happy, then.



I was even happier when he actually followed me on Twitter that night. You want proof? hahaha, nope cannot show you. HAHAHA. Anyway, I said hi and he replied yay. So we started tweeting each other. Only like 10 until now? Meh. I don't really mind I'm not so obsessed with him already since he said he waned to try Shisha, lol. Way to go. & I realised he's really really mainstream. Y'know, very. Not that I didn't like him already because of that, I'm actually okay with him and would smile when I tweet him because he's kinda cute sometimes LOLOL. Okay lah so now I sound like a creep but who cares anyway.

Oh and I look really awful in that pic ^, no? I actually don't really care also. & if he reads this I'm gonna die because don't I sound like I judged him too much? Sorry for doing so, I didn't mean it okay. Hope you understand. (:

But even so, it's kinda impossible for him to read such a long post. He's a busy guy. boo.