"look back & learn"

Title: Homosexual

Sunday, July 15, 2012 || 1:44 AM

A short post about today because unfortunately I'm going for Jog for Hope tomorrow, which I've never imagined myself to even go for a marathon in my life. Hmm..

Just a little bit about what I learned in church today. More specifically, from ZC.
I've never been for a ZC meeting because I heard it can be quite boring but since the topic today really attracts me, so..

I will just start this topic by introducing the Pastor who preached about it. Pastor Triffina (or however you spell it but it rhymes with Ribena - that's how she taught us to remember her name)..
Short info, she was a homosexual, SSA (same sex attraction).. hmm, her childhood was really - how do you describe it - full of stories.
When she was a child, around the age of 5 -because she was chubby- her parents started to ask her not to eat SO much, causing her to have a mindset that she's ugly for being chubby. Nonetheless, when she was only a 6 year old, a girl who is the same gender kissed her in her lips (french kiss like how she's mentioned it).. Who wouldn't be traumatized? When she was in primary school, the 'friends' started to call her tomboy, when she was in high school, she fell in love with a guy.

Then one day, when the weather was beautiful, this guy who had always cycled home decided to walk her home. It was drizzling, so romantic, BUT.. the guy was talking about how he had fallen in love with a girl which was his neighbour. Hmm.. that made her think that no guys liked him.

So, uh.. the thing is, she wanted to tell us how no one is born a homosexual, but it's because of the environment. How it influences, and how the media affects us so swiftly.

Hormones, you ask? I guess hormones will make people be like example, a guy to be girly, but because of the people around them who keep judging them and say they are very girly, he'll eventually prefer to like a guy.

So yeah, it tells us not to be too judgmental.

It's actually not WRONG to be a homosexual, because it really isn't their fault to be one. The thing is, we can't judge a person just like that, what you say might just affect one's life.

God will still love you even if you're a homosexual, but it doesn't mean that he agrees on what you're doing. Definitely, 'cause God has changed this Pastor who suffered a lot even after she met God. She was ashamed but she didn't know what to do about it since there was no one who could help her. Before that, I guess I've left out something..

Her parents used to have arguments. And when she was like a form2, her mother, her siblings and her were being chased out of the house. As a result, she became a 'husband' of her mom, who day and night complained how bad her dad was. That made her hated men.

So yes, she was struggling really hard, had a few relationships of SSA, but there was one of these relationships, which she was SO SO in love with this girl, and when they broke up, she was REALLY upset, she cried. Have I told you that she's not a virgin anymore? But what I'm thankful for is that even if she's so ashamed about her past, she shared all about it for God, because God saved her life and changed her in a miraculously way.

There's one day when a pastor from a church (can't remember it's from what church, was it DUMC?), anyway the pastor and his wife were just sitting at one side at the corner. She came up to them and told them what she had been going through.. Then the pastor and his wife were just listening quietly, without even judging, he said just a few words which changed her whole life. "Jesus loves you." These 3 words are so powerful that it changed her life. Yes, that's how awesome God is. Even though you're a sinner, He hates sin but loves the sinner.

Actually the whole main point of this little conference wasn't only about that, but it was about how to respond when:
1) A person comes up to you and says she/he's a homosexual?
2) A person comes up to you and says she/he's attracted to you?
3) A person (opposite sex) comes to you and tells you about their sexual activities?

#1 Is one born as a homosexual?
#2 Can a homosexual be transformed?
These two questions seem like it's answered in a way, so I shall not talk about it anymore.

but the first 3 questions, how would you respond?

-not to be too judgmental. Tell them "thanks for even trusting me and decide to tell me all these (because everyone needs a HUGE courage to do so), but in Christianity, I do not agree on what you're doing, but I will help you with a condition that you will find another person that you trust." [never do it alone, you can never do it alone :)]

I will end this post by telling a really interesting 'example'.
Hmm.. This homosexual thing is not in God's design, definitely not.

A man is created to give (to produce life), and a woman is created to receive. Well, uhm, how do I say this? A woman can never be with a woman because how can receive+receive work? It's clear that the sexual organs *coughs* are made in a way that a man should be a giver and a woman shall receive. (:
True isn't it?

Posted by Bernice with love.♥
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Title: last Friday night

Saturday, July 14, 2012 || 1:00 AM

Thought of having a post about it since last Friday night. Not about the song TGIF, but guess what? It's something better, even better. (or it's just incomparable).. Anyway, so glad that I'm one of the firsts who watched The Amazing Spiderman. It's really good despite how I didn't really watch the previous ones (I did lah, but on the TV so I was walking around to get food the whole time during the movie when it was being played.)

I thought I was all alone.. (actually I was, you know) I regretted for even being there. It was a youth outing, which we only needed to pay RM5 for dinner and movie. It was so worth it, but so what when I didn't have any friend who went. & then I was like praying and was playing with my phone when I saw Yew Leung. (nyehehee, he's my school cf's president) Other than him, I saw some other SMK Taman SEA people too! And so I wasn't alone anymore. I was so happy for them(for their existence, I meant)! Then I was talking to Li Ren and Li Zhou (two BBSM members) about marching. (it was sports day that day in the morning)

Story time!
I woke up at 4:30 in the morning AUTOMATICALLY, even before my alarm clock buzzes (don't know if that's a right word but yeah. you get what I mean?), I guess I was very excited. But before that I was praying very hard, like *even if we don't win, it'll still be a great experience for us* for both my run and marching. I guess that's the reason why I had peace in me, I didn't really feel sad. (Maybe I did complain, because the judgment was ULTIMATELY unfair).. At least that's what I thought until I saw the video of marching, it was quite kelam-kabut at the end but no one fell down, AT LEAST. Okay, but I didn't really feel sad or cry about it even though I spent all my time every day (40 minutes each day) to walk home from school. Thank God for awesome friends like Siew Chin and Siew Yoong because I got to rest in their house, otherwise my legs will go broken or something because of tiredness. :b

The run, unfortunately, though unexpectedly I got to the finals but still, 4th place. I guess it's because I had the mindset of not being able to win then I just let my another yellow house runner to win 3rd place. Never knew I could run (not really), but it's a miracle to have gotten 2nd in SARINGAN. :D

End of story.

Anyway, the reason I was so happy and thankful was that ALTHOUGH my CG leader decided to sit with me (since I was alone), we got separated seats. It was quite sad to know that, uh, I got the F-1 (F row first seat) and he got the G-14(G row last seat). Then he decided to change tickets for me so that we could sit together! And then guess what, we got the M-11 and M-12, which was the first row among all the seats, nearest to the theater screen. But before that, I was chit-chatting with Yew Leung about God-knows-what, I can't remember THEN, DENG DENG DENG DENG, I asked him for his seat number and it was M-13 and M-14, he was gonna sit with a person whom he didn't know and took the whole night to reach The Curve.

I was SO HAPPY that time, but at the same time awkward. I mean, imagine it lah k, you sitting with someone so.. NICE and almost PERFECT. (Nope, nope, it's not that I like him or anything, it's just a compliment by every friend of mine and something even funnier is that even Afrina thinks so and describes him as "HOOOOOO"-holy i guess?) It was super awkward whenever there were kissing scenes, really, I mean where else should I look at? At least if I watch my my friends like Kyleen and Zoe or Valerie, I would look at them with the ERR face. LOL. At least there would be something to do during the whole time of, you know, mouth to mouth thing. :/

Don't you think I'm pure-minded now AHAHAHAHA.

more like to tweet* about it? :D but it's true.

This made me smile:-

HEHEHE.

But let's talk about today? Friday the 13th. Or it was yesterday, if you count mathematically.
So, uh, in the morning I was rushing then I unlocked my door and brought the lock along with me to school. -_- it was so heavy so I decided to put it in my bag. Then my bag (the plastic thing that usually breaks, broke) dropped down (the whole thing) on the road when I was going down from the bus. It was embarrassing but it was okay for me since all I was worried about was if I remembered to close the door. :/ It was horrible so I prayed and YAY, everything went smoothly.

B.A.D too went smoothly. What I didn't expect happened. Both good news and bad news:-
The sketch I selfishly chose (the funny one) made everyone enjoyed their time. I really hope all the boys enjoyed, though :) And so, uh, everyone kinda praised me, as if I'm some kinda drama queen..

Bad news is, the water dispenser I lend in the name of KRS had gone missing. I really wonder who would just take it and leave. And I heard it's expensive. Someone please, return it or tell me if you've seen it. :/ It's written KRS on the cover of the water dispenser. It's such a huge thing, how did it even go missing?! Seriously, I'm starting to think that I'm the most irresponsible person alive!

God, please help me. Please..

Posted by Bernice with love.♥
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