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Title: Off tune much?

Thursday, March 31, 2011 || 9:25 PM

WHO ELSE? HAHAHA :D

Finally, after.. few months.. This song is finally out! :D

Requested by Kai Sheng. LOL. He's challenging me.

TEEHEE

Kiss Goodbye is really a hard song to sing. And Lee Hom is that awesome to sing until so nice. HAHA :) Sorry for the off tune thing. TEEHEE hope you enjoy it. I mean, it sucks, how are you supposed to enjoy it? LOL.

So I just simply sang it LOL 'cause I just recovered from my cough. Ahem ahem. Yes, I had been coughing more than 2 weeks. Suffocated much. :( HAHAHA. :) I'm healed now, thank God. Finally can sing, but it didn't make my singing skills improve. Still sucks. I want to be like my mom! :D

See I'm posing with HER TROPHIES :D

She has tons of trophies. (: You can just come to my house and see them if you don't believe me (:

Non-edited :D

That girl beside him is pretty and cute ahahha :D Jason Chen is so awesome HEHEHE. ♥

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Title: Rats:(

Wednesday, March 30, 2011 || 7:57 PM

Haven't been seeing cockroaches straying in my house for quite a long while. But sadly, when I woke up today early in the morning, (I've started to become lazier to walk to my room so I sleep on the couch) about 3 o'clock, I wanted to pack my bag, and since, I wasn't that tired anymore after that sleep SO I decided to walk to my room, and guess what? I saw a rat doing dunno-what-is-it-doing-in-the-middle-of-the-night ON MY another COUCH. (Another basically means the rat was not on the couch I was sleeping on.) So creepy, gross, eww-ish, stupid-ish, evil, mean, dirty-ish, not-clean-ish, OH EWWWWW-NESS-ISH-CITY-NESS-ISH. EWW. EWW. EWW! :(

I can't differentiate whether it was reality or a nightmare, 'cause I can't find it after it ran behind the rack where TV is placed on.. It's just so eww. I was like screaming, feeling helpless. I seriously dunno what I can do at THAT time.

So what I wanna tell you is, I hate cockroaches, lizards, flies and mosquitoes, and RATS. Annoying b*tches. :(

Posted by Bernice with love.♥
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Title: 爱

Tuesday, March 29, 2011 || 9:21 PM

爱

没有我们想象中的那么复杂吧?

为什么人类总把它当成是一种游戏?

想玩就玩，不想玩就甩开呢?

为什么人类总把它当成是一种 - 你碰了就会受伤的东西呢?

它不是应该是一种当你遇到了你就会觉得它是很完美无瑕但又会让你不知所措的东西吗?

难道我们就不能像上帝爱我们一样爱别人吗?

不为了自己的利益而去爱、无私奉献，付出、不求回报的去爱.

就像耶稣为了我们的罪而牺牲了自己的生命一样?

就像当你有任何事情需要他时，他都会不顾一切帮你解决所有的困难?

就像当你遇到危险一样，无时无刻地保护你，像个天使，像个守护神.

他真的很棒! :)

他最棒了! :D

So it sucks lol. My Chinese is really getting ↓ . I was being random. Ahahaa. I like the second part only. I was bored so I wrote that. Basically its just something I don't understand. I just thought love should be as simple as how Jesus loves us. So great. *winks*

bye. must 爱 people yo! :)

Just saw that dummy Yew Han wrote something on my CBox. Gotta reply it here and tell him he's completely wrong.

"yewhan: you're just being like me when it was my time before being with her. I bet you don't understand ahah"

First, you're wrong because it's totally different. Xiu Ling doesn't have an ex. Or any. Second, she didn't make you jealous because, well she didn't have a bf. Third, she didn't treat you as a toy. At least she WAS treating you as a friend. And fourth, you DID NOT wait for her for 4 years, so you don't know how I feel. Fifth, Xiu Ling is not the kind of girl who can be easily touched. She rejected you for twice. Sixth, LOL you don't have a rival. (Not that I have, but, still there is a girl who loves him too). You want more? I'll give. Just want you to know it's different, 'cause we are different. And yes I don't understand 'cause you don't understand too. Don't act like you do.

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Title: What am I supposed to do?

Sunday, March 27, 2011 || 7:15 PM

Sigh, I bet you’re with your ex right now. I know you will go back to her once she changes her mind and says I love you to you. I know it since the day she talked to you on your Facebook wall. And I’m here, feeling jealous. :(

And worst, you didn't know about it.

You'll never know about it.

I know this is obvious. I bet you know who I am talking about right? I barely talk to him now. But then once I don't talk to him, I will be worrying that I would just lose him the next minute. Sometimes I seriously think I'm just a toy. He can say he loves me whenever he wants it. 'Cause he knows, I'm the stupid girl who waited him for almost 4 years. Yeah, that's just how stupid I am. But I don't think I am stupid sometimes. I don't know, I think I am that stupid sometimes, too. I know he still loves her. I am sure. I mean, he's the kind of guy who can be touched easily. And that's really a bad thing. That's the biggest reason I'm worrying now. Although, there's a saying, 'If you let go, and he comes back, then he's yours. If you let go, he leaves you, then he will never be yours.' Just, face the fact Bernice. He loves her, she's hotter than you, prettier and well, better. I think. (Although you're awesomer.) But ohgosh still, you need to face the fact.

Okay so, Kai Sheng that freaking love guru told me that SHE you know, she, loves him. OR going to take revenge on him. Whichever However Whatever. My heart has been completely crashed. HAH. But the thing is I don't care anymore. :) Just gonna live like how normally awesome I am. But this is the thing. I think my brother saw me stalking him. Wth. He just said something like : " **** *** likes this kind of hairstyle? " (cause he thought I cut my hair) Freak. How? How am I going to survive? I'm just going to give up. Like now. After 3 years 9 months and 4 days. Today. IS A BIG DAY. It's going to be awesome.

but the thing is.. I'm sad today. not because of him. (But because of Him.) Yes. Capital H I M. Wait, I didn't mean that God did a bad thing to me (God will never do bad thing to anyone. He is the awesomest!) but I meant I did something really bad. Really really bad. And it's something like worshiping another God. (And I only believe in God, and Jesus.) Which I know, it's something REALLY REALLY BAD (it could be the baddest thing) and sinned that you could ever do especially when you're not an atheist.

Yeah, although I feel like crying and of course I tried to hold back. I was asking God to forgive me when my mom says I need to show respect to my Uncle. And that's my beloved uncle, without him, my mom would not live so happily now. My uncle helped my family alot. He's single, and he always come to my house last time. And he passed away 11 years ago. Which that's the first and the last time I saw my mom cried. Oh, I didn't tell you what makes me think that I am worshiping another God. I held the Chinese praying stick after knowing that I shouldn't. :(

I don't know if I was being rude when I was holding the Chinese praying stick and talking to God, asking Him to forgive me. And what I did was ask my uncle to rest in peace. I really don't know if my uncle minds it or not. And my grandparents. I bow down and say prayers. In front of the grave. Is that rude? Can anyone tell me if it's rude to do that? :(

Will God forgive me? I only believe in him. But I held the Chinese praying stick because I had to. And I must show my respect to my beloved uncle. Does that mean that Buddhist and Christian will never get along together? :(

Posted by Bernice with love.♥
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Title: Earth hour (:

Saturday, March 26, 2011 || 10:16 PM

Just laugh, no worries, no stress :)

How was Earth hour, people?

Did you off your lights?

If you did not, never mind!

Do it next year, pinky promise? (:

(Why pinky? :O Can't it be bluey? LOL just kidding)

Bye.

1 hour 30 minutes.

Satisfaction.

30 houses (or more) didn't off their lights. :(

And can you imagine that?

That's for my street.

I mean, it's not mine, but you know :(

It's a sad thing.

(updated)

A very touching story! :)

I was walking around in a Target store, when I saw

a cashier hand this little boy some money back. The boy couldn’t have been more than 5 or 6 years old. The cashier said, “I’m sorry, but you don’t have enough money to buy this doll.” Then the little boy turned to the old woman next to him: ”Granny, are you sure I don

’t have enough money?” The old lady replied: ”You know that you don’t have enough money to buy this doll, my dear.” Then she asked him to stay there for just 5 minutes while she went to look a

round. She left quickly. The littl

e boy was still holding the doll in his hand. Finally, I walked toward him and I asked him who he wished to give this doll to. “It’s the doll that my sister loved most and wanted so much for Christmas. She was sure that Santa Claus would bring it to her.” I replied to him that maybe Santa Claus would bring it to her afterall, and not to worry. But he replied to me sadly. “No, Santa Claus can’t bring it to her where she is now. I have to give the doll to my mommy so that she can give it to my sister when she goes there.” His eyes were so sad while saying this. “My sister has gone to be with God. Daddy says that Mommy is going to see God ver

y soon too, so I thought that she could take the doll with her to give it to my sister.” My heart nearly stopped. The little boy looked up at me and said: “I told daddy to tell mommy not to go yet. I need her to wait until I come back from the mall.” Then he showed me a very nice photo of him where he was laughing. He then told me “I want mommy to take m

y picture with her so she won’t forget me. I love my mommy and I wish she doesn’t have to leave me, but daddy says that she has to go to be with my little sister.” Then he looked again at the doll with sad eyes, very quietly. I quickly reached for my wallet and said to the boy. “Suppose we check again, just in case you do have enough money for the doll?” “OK,” he said, “I hope I do have enough.” I added some of my money to his without him seei

ng and we started to count it. There was enough for the doll and even some spare money. The little boy said: “Thank you God for giving me enough money!” Then he looked at me and added, “I asked last night before I went to sleep for God to make sure I had enough money to buy this doll, so that mommy could give it to my sister. He heard me!” “I also wanted to have enough money to buy a white rose for my mommy, but I didn’t dare to ask God for too much. But He gave me enough to buy the doll and a white rose.” “My mommy loves white roses.” A few minutes later, the old lady returned and I left with my basket. I finished my shopping in a totally different state from when I started. I couldn’t get the little boy out of my mind. Then I remembered a local newspaper article two days ago, which mentioned a drunk man in a truck, who hit a car occupied by a young woman and a little girl. The little girl died right away, and the mother was left in a critical state. The family had to decide whether to pull the plug on the life-sustaining machine, because the young woman would not be able to recover from the coma. Was this the family of the little boy? Two days after this encounter with the little

boy, I read in the newspaper that the young woman had passed away. I couldn’t stop myself as I bought a bunch of white roses and I went to the funeral home where the body of the young woman was exposed for people to see and make last wishes before her burial. She was there, in her coffin, holding a beautiful white rose in her hand with the photo of the little boy and the doll placed over her chest. I left the place, teary-eyed, feeling that my life had been changed forever.. The love that the little boy had for his mother and his sister is still, to this day, hard to imagine. And in a fraction of a second, a drunk driver had taken all this away from him.

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Title: awesome songs! (:

Thursday, March 24, 2011 || 8:03 PM

You just can't deny it, he's talented. (: Imagine you take 8 video shots in one day. You have to sing high pitch and low pitch. You have to act, without any mistakes. At least I don't think I can do that. Each small part is 8 minutes plus. His voice is awesome, really awesome :)) Ah! Just love how he sings, how he acts. :D ♥

...Honey! I THOUGHT YOU SAID MONEY! :D ♥ Paul is so cute omgosh! :P

All of them are so cute! :D

I did not forget Joseph Vincent. :D He's so handsome!

Ah!~ ASIANS! :D

Of course old songs are awesome too. Like this one. You just gotta love Michael Learns To Rock. No regrets :D

Listen to ALL THEIR SONGS when you're free, seriously.

Tonight ASAM LAKSA ♥

Best food ever.

I know, my life is so awesome. Eat, sleep and shit. LOL. That's funny I know. :D All about Christ and Music! (: That's just how awesome my life is.

Tomorrow CF! Loveees. :D

Okay, bye bye everyone! :D

Posted by Bernice with love.♥
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Title: Beeeeeeeeetch, heh, hello :)

Tuesday, March 22, 2011 || 3:24 PM

New blogskin.

But I'm still awesome. :)

I gotta kill myself (not the truth) I got very low for Sejarah, it's freaking not a good thing. I'm so sad!

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Title: Read only if you have time for God

Thursday, March 17, 2011 || 8:59 PM

God, when I received this e-mail, I thought...

I don't have time for this... And, this is really inappropriate during work.

Then, I realized that this kind of thinking is... Exactly, what has caused lot of the problems in our world today.

We try to keep God in church on Sunday morning...

Maybe, Sunday night...

And, the unlikely event of a midweek service.

We do like to have Him around during sickness...

And, of course, at funerals.

However, we don't have time, or room, for Him during work or play...

Because... That's the part of our lives we think... We can, and should, handle on our own.

May God forgive me for ever thinking...

That... there is a time or place where..

HE is not to be FIRST in my life.

We should always have time to remember all HE has done for us.

If, You aren't ashamed to do this...

Please follow the directions.

Jesus said, "If you are ashamed of me, I will be ashamed of you before my Father."

Not ashamed?

Pass this on ONLY IF YOU MEAN IT!!

Yes, I do Love God.

HE is my source of existence and Savior.

He keeps me functioning each and every day. Without Him, I will be nothing. But, with Christ, HE strengthens me. (Phil 4:13)

This is the simplest test.

If You Love God... And, are not ashamed of all the marvelous things HE has done for you...

Send this to ten people and the person who sent it to you!

I don't think I know 10 people who would admit they love Jesus. Do You love Him?

THE POEM

I knelt to pray but not for long, I had too much to do. I had to hurry and get to work For bills would soon be due. So I knelt and said a hurried prayer,

And jumped up off my knees.

My Christian duty was now done

My soul could rest at ease.

All day long I had no time

To spread a word of cheer. No time to speak of Christ to friends,

They'd laugh at me I'd fear.

No time, no time, too much to do,

That was my constant cry,

No time to give to souls in need

But at last the time, the time to die.

I went before the Lord, I came, I stood with downcast eyes. For in his hands God held a book; It was the book of life.

God looked into his book and said

"Your name I cannot find.

I once was going to write it down...

But never found the time"

Now do you have the time to pass it on?

Make sure that you scroll through to the end.

Easy vs. Hard

Why is it so hard to tell the truth but Yet so easy to tell a lie?

Why are we so sleepy in church but Right when the sermon is over we suddenly wake up?

Why is it so hard to talk about God but yet so easy to talk about nasty stuff?

Why is it so boring to look at a Christian magazine, but yet so easy to look at a nasty one?

Why is it so easy to delete a Godly e- ma il, but yet we forward all of the nasty ones?

Why are the churches getting smaller but yet the bars and dance clubs are getting larger?

Do you give up? Think about it . Are you going to forward this, or delete it?

Just remember-God is watching you. Prayer Wheel-Let's see the devil stop this one!

Here's what the wheel is all about. When you receive this, say a prayer for the person that sent it to you....

That's all you have to do....

There is nothing attached....

This is so powerful....

Do not stop the wheel, please....

Of all the free gifts we may receive, Prayer is the very best one....

There are no costs, but wonderful rewards... GOD BLESS!

May God keep you and bless you. If this doesn't give you chills, nothing will...this message is very true. Hope you are all as blessed as I was from this story. I wonder how many people will delete this without reading it because of the title on it?

There once was a man named George Thomas, pastor in a small New England town. One Easter Sunday morning he came to the Church carrying a rusty, bent, old bird cage, and set it by the pulpit. Eyebrows were raised and, as if in response, Pastor Thomas began to speak..."I was walking through town yesterday when I saw a young boy coming toward me swinging this bird cage. On the bottom of the cage were three little wild birds, shivering with cold and fright. I stopped the lad and asked, "What you got there, son?" "Just some old birds," came the reply.

"What are you gonna do with them?" I asked.

"Take 'em home and have fun with 'em," he answered. "I'm gonna tease 'em and pull out their feathers to make 'em fight. I'm gonna have a real good time." "But you'll get tired of those birds sooner or later. What will you do?"

"Oh, I got some cats," said the little boy. "They like birds. I'll take 'em to them."

The pastor was silent for a moment. "How much do you want for those birds, son?"

"Huh?? !!! Why, you don't want them birds, mister. They're just plain old field birds. They don't sing. They ain't even pretty!"

"How much?" the pastor asked again.

The boy sized up the pastor as if he were crazy and said, "$10?"

The pastor reached in his pocket and took out a ten dollar bill. He placed it in the boy's hand. In a flash, the boy was gone.

The pastor picked up the cage and gently carried it to the end of the alley where there was a tree and a grassy spot Setting the cage down, he opened the door, and by softly tapping the bars persuaded the birds out, setting them free.

Well, that explained the empty bird cage on the pulpit, and then the pastor began to tell this story.

One day Satan and Jesus were having a conversation. Satan had just come from the Garden of Eden, and he was gloating and boasting. "Yes, sir, I just caught the world full of people down there. Set me a trap, used bait I knew they couldn't resist. Got 'em all!"

"What are you going to do with them?" Jesus asked.

Satan replied, "Oh, I'm gonna have fun! I'm gonna teach them how to marry and divorce each other, how to hate and abuse each other, how to drink and smoke and curse. I'm gonna teach them how to invent guns and bombs and kill each other. I'm really gonna have fun!"

"And what will you do when you get done with them?" Jesus asked. "Oh, I'll kill 'em," Satan glared proudly. "How much do you want for them?" Jesus asked.

"Oh, you don't want those people. They ain't no good. Why, you'll take them and they'll just hate you. They'll spit on you, curse you and kill you. You don't want those people!!"

"How much?" He asked again.

Satan looked at Jesus and sneered, "All your blood, tears and your life."

Jesus said, "DONE!"

Then He paid the price.

The pastor picked up the cage he opened the door and he walked from the pulpit.

Notes: Isn't it funny how simple it is for people to trash God and then wonder why the world's going to hell.

Isn't it funny how someone can say "I believe in God" but still follow Satan (who, by the way, also "believes" in God).

Isn't it funny how you can send a thousand jokes through e-mail and they spread like wildfire, but when you start sending messages regarding the Lord, people think twice about sharing?

Isn't it funny how when you go to forward this message, you will not send it to many on your address list because you're not sure what they believe, or what they will think of you for sending it to them.

Isn't it funny how I can be more worried about what other people think of me than what God thinks of me.

I pray, for everyone who sends this to their entire address book, they will be blessed by God in a way special for them.

And send it back to the person who sent it, to let them know that indeed it was sent out to many more.

Posted by Bernice with love.♥
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Title: ((♥))

Saturday, March 12, 2011 || 1:01 PM

Right now at this very minute, someone is very proud of you. Someone is thinking of you. Someone cares about you. Someone misses you. Someone wants to talk to you. Someone wants to be with you. Someone hopes you aren't in trouble .Someone wants to hold your hand. Someone wants you to be happy just for you. Someone thinks you ARE a gift. Someone wants to hug you. Someone loves you. Someone admires your strength. Someone is thinking of you and smiling. Someone wants to be on your shoulder to cry on. Someone thinks the world of you. Someone wants to protect you. Someone would do anything for you. Someone wants to be forgiven. Someone is grateful for your forgiveness. Someone wants to laugh with you about old times. Someone remembers you and wishes you were there. Someone needs to know that your love is unconditional. Someone wants to tell you how much they care. Someone wants to share their dreams with you. Someone wants to hold you in their arms. Someone wants YOU to hold them in your arms. Someone treasures your spirit. Someone wishes she/he could STOP time because of you. Someone loves you for who you are. Someone wants to be with you. Someone hears a song that reminds her/him of you. Someone is glad that you're her/his only true love. Someone wants to be your friend. Someone stayed up all night thinking about you. Someone is alive because of you. Someone believes that you are their soul mate. Someone wants to be near you. Someone misses your guidance and advice. Someone values your guidance and advice. Someone has faith in you. Someone trusts you. Someone needs you to send them this letter. Someone needs your support. Someone needs you to have faith in them. Someone needs you to let them be your friend. Someone will cry when they read this.

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Title: Pray for the world!

Friday, March 11, 2011 || 10:49 PM

NHK confirms that total of 6884 deaths are reported due to Earthquake in Japan. This is just heartbreaking. May their soul rest in peace.

"Don't be afraid of how big the tsunami is... show the tsunami how big your God is."

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Title: Today's Hero.

|| 4:36 PM

Team Hoyt! So Dick is the father of Rick, it's a super awesome video, which can make you cry. Seriously, he's a hero, he's so good. God bless him and Rick (:

So today, CF was about Ben Hooper, the governor of Tennessee! Here's the story :-

(It's a very interesting story! Make sure you read it okay? :D) ♥

It's a Christian story anyway!

The Religious Affiliation of Tennessee Governor

Ben Hooper

The dreaded question: I think that I heard this in a sermon at my former church. It is attributed to Dr. Fred Craddock (Cherry Log Christian Church, Cherry Log, Ga.) who is said to have told of the time he and his wife slipped away to the mountains for a few days of relaxation. As they sat in a little restaurant, they saw a man going from table to table greeting diners. Eventually he made his way to their table and, learning that Fred was a pastor, he insisted on telling this story. He said he had been born a few miles from that spot, across the mountain. His mother had not been married when he was born, and the criticism directed at her also hit him. He'd learned to stay to himself at school, lest the insults of his classmates strike too hard. When he was twelve, a new pastor came to the little community church. People talked about that pastor's skill as a preacher, and the boy began to go hear for himself. The preacher fascinated him; but he was always careful to slip in late, sit in the back, and leave early.

One Sunday he was so caught up in the service that he forgot to slip out early. Suddenly he felt a big hand on his shoulder; and, as he whipped around, he saw the face of the pastor. The preacher said, "Who are you, son? Whose boy are you?" His heart sank at the dreaded question; but then the preacher went on: "Wait a minute. I know who you are. The family resemblance is unmistakable. You are a child of God!" With that he patted the boy on the back and added, "That's quite an inheritance, son. Go and claim it!"

The man in the diner with the story then said to Dr. Craddock and his wife, "That one statement literally changed my life." He explained that his name was Ben Hooper (1870-1957) and that he had become a lawyer and had been elected to two consecutive terms (1911-1915) as governor of the state of Tennessee. His had been a responsible and respected life made possible by a person who cared enough to encourage a little boy.

Whoops! On 4/4/2004, an e-mail came to me from James Bell asking for verification. I found some interesting info on an "urban legends" site, "snopes.com". Gov. Hooper was born illegitimate 13 October 1870 to Sarah Wade in Newport, Tenn....the father being Dr. L. W. Hooper who wouldn't marry Sarah because he was already engaged to another. In several years, after Sarah's father died (her support), Ben wound up in an orphanage in Knoxville. When Ben was about 9, Dr. Hooper learned of the situation; he and Mrs. Hooper having lost one child at a very young age, they adopted Ben. Unlike the above story, Ben tended to answer insults with his fists. It is said (I haven't actually read it) that his autobiography never mentions anything like the above story. Ben was baptized into the faith at age 15 and remained a staunch Baptist throughout his life.

From his autobiography (I think that is the quote source), Gov. Hooper said, "Instead of my supposed handicap generating an inferiority complex, it motivated a spirit of ambition and determination that furnished the impetus to carry me over many a hill in my young days. I began to understand that sensible people might appraise a man upon his character and attainments rather than upon the accident of birth or the merits of his antecedents. This possibility furnished a great incentive to effort."

I found this from the internet, so it's a bit long.

End of story, goodbye !

Posted by Bernice with love.♥
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Title: Interview

Thursday, March 10, 2011 || 3:46 PM

"I'm beautiful in my way, 'cause God makes no mistake. I'm on the right track, baby I was born this way" (:

Leo interview is finally over. I don't have to memorise the pledge, etc anymore! :) I was really nervous you know :( And yay it's finally over :D :D It was fun, seniors asked super a lot questions! And bahh! I'm not supposed to say anything out :)) Just in case any form 2s who are interested in joining Leo club, and are currently reading this. Hahaha, I'm sorry lah! :D CANNOT TELL YOU :) Who will read my blog anyway? ._. I'm just being too perasan that I think there are people reading my blog :P

Btw, one of the questions was if you were an organizer for an event and you had to show up in the stage to entertain the guests, what would you do? I answered maybe tell some jokes. LOL. Then they asked me to tell them any jokes that I would tell the guests. I was like O.O Really, blank. Totally, then they asked me other than that? Will you sing or dance? :) I answered, maybe I'll sing! :D "What song will you sing then?" I thought of CF and I sang Hillsong United's song! :D, Mighty to save! :P But too bad, I forgot the lyrics! :(

I did really bad for that!

But for the pledge, I did well, I guess ? :)

TEEHEE !

I'm so hungry I'm gonna go eat, so I'll just summarise this!

I didn't walk home, there's this Auntie, which is Suet Er's transporter who is super friendly and nice sent me home. I was like super happy that I don't need to walk home, OMGOSH! D: she is just so friendly :)) God bless her! ♥

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Title: X-Ray kills cells.

Wednesday, March 9, 2011 || 5:59 PM

X-ray is so cool (: I always thought it would be extremely hot when you do it but no, you just have to put your body parts (example hands, legs, chest, etc) there and relax. And actually all you have to do is just sit there and wait for the radiologist to go out and press a button, *CHIAK*, done :p I was really blur. It's so embarrassing! :( That radiologist asked me to put my right hand on the 'board thingy' (whatever it is, it's a flat dark blue surface which let you put your hands on it.) but I was told to do X-ray for my left hand by my doctor.. I didn't tell the radiologist anything, I just did as what she said. After that, my dad went to the Assunta Pharmacy to get my drugs and pay for the fees. But then there was this radiologist(another one) who came to me and brought me back to the X-ray place to do X-ray another time, but it's F.O.C because it was their mistake, (kind of, although that's my fault too) I spent RM132.40 today ._. So thank God it was free, or else the X-ray fee will be RM82. Seriously. I'm a money sucker! >( You should stay away from me, don't say I didn't warn you. D:

Forget about the X-ray thing if you didn't get it. Next, I had my Sejarah test yesterday, I was in the sleepy+sad mood yesterday :( I studied Sejarah but still did really bad (I think, since I'd that I-wont-get-good-result-for-Sejarah-anyway feeling) Seriously, Jing Wei just have to read once and she'll remember everything. I've to read ten times and I still don't think I'll remember any single word ._. I'm not a nerd, even if I am, I'm forced to be one, who asked me to be so stupid? :( but, this is me.. I believe I'm good at something and I WILL figure that out one day! :D

So cheerful la me. :')

Next, I had my KH test today, I've that same feeling too (that I-won't-get-good-result-for-ANY-SUBJECT-THAT-EXISTS-anyway feeling, just in case you don't know.) Aww, so sad. I know right! D:

I'm gonna tell you this, it's a super unbelievable-sad-surprised stuff. My uncle spent almost 20 thousand due to staying in the private hospital for two weeks :( It's really expensive, and he has to stay in the hospital for another week. (It's only a maybe, not sure yet) That private hospital is MEAN :'( :'( But what to do? It's a private hospital. And private hospitals suck money!

Oh, I didn't continue my last post, did I? Just gonna tell you here that I'm not going to continue that ._.

Posted by Bernice with love.♥
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Title: ._.

Monday, March 7, 2011 || 8:45 PM

What on Earth is this? You have a phone and yet every time you want someone else to get something or buy something you ask me to call them and tell them?! You reload 30 bucks every month, and you use it like everyday, you receive calls every night! You're using your phone all the time! You use your phone more than I do. -.- What on Earth is this?!

Okay, Bernice you gotta chill, she's using her own money anyway. Let's sing this Twinkle Twinkle Little Star, How I wonder what you are, Up above the world so high, like a diamond in the sky! :D

There, I gotta bathe, and do my Seni and study Sejarah. Goodbye all. :) ♥

Posted by Bernice with love.♥
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Title: the courages and guts I had yesterday! :D

Sunday, March 6, 2011 || 8:23 PM

Hello there. Tumblr was tilting my life just now. But I'm okay now. :D

Yeah, I finally found the guts to talk/confessed honestly to him. Like whatever I was facing, feeling and etc. :D But I sense it's going to end really soon. Really really soon! Since he's the kind of guy who .. doesn't really care about what I said. Well, maybe he just did.

Sometimes, he acts so strangely like we aren't friends, sometimes, we're too close as if we're the happiest couple in the world, (although I'm single, ahem ahem but I just wish, we can maintain like never get bored talking to each other..) I didn't cry yesterday, surprised? :)

Eh me now got muscle in love matter :P Yeahh that strong :D

Okay got to go, looking forward to Canteen Day! :P

EAT EAT EAT :D

*may be continued*

Posted by Bernice with love.♥
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Title: CF!

Saturday, March 5, 2011 || 6:05 PM

I love this song :D

We just sang this song on Friday in CF :)

Awesome! ♥ :p

Remember to listen to it, sweethearts! :D

HD :D

♥

Suddenly think that Jesus is the best.

Wait! I didn't mean suddenly, I mean I always think Jesus is the best. Always :)

Jesus is my best friend!

Jesus is my father in Christ! :P

He is so awesome! :D

I cried for so long yesterday, I screamed, shouted when I was crying.

It's like releasing all my stress, pain and anger I've got before that.

Sometimes, we need to cry.

And Jesus is forever by your side.

No matter what you do.

Or what happens.

Say Amen!

Amen! ♥

So yesterday was about, my evil brother who was mad at me because he waited for me outside the school, which I told him he's supposed to fetch me at 3 o'clock, not 2.30. And yet he went to school at 2.45. It's like, obviously his fault right -.-

Why should I cry, seriously!

But no, it was my fault too? I really don't know what's wrong with me. I keep blaming myself, and the other side of me keep denying it. Example, my hands ._.

I prayed so hard, I felt so sorry to my brother, I don't know why, I just don't want to be bad, angry or what. But I haven't been talking to my brother since yesterday.

Like whaaaaat. I don't know how to talk to him.

He seems, so strange!

Sigh. :(

Now what's next?

Oh, going to change my blogskin! If only I found one later :)

Tumblr is so addictive omg, that's the only reason I online now. ._.

-New hairstyle for this month.

It's a braided fringe which clipped onto the other side of the hair.

Forget it if you don't get it :)

Oh ya! And the reason I want to change my blogskin is because I can't post huge huge videos. :( I want to find big big space to put videos. :P

By the way! This coming Monday is Canteen Day!

So awesome! It's my time to sapu all the food in the Canteen, if only I was rich enough, which too bad too sad I'm not :(

Uncle Hoe has to lay down in the bed for a very long time due to the tube in his throat/neck :(

Ahhhh, pray pray pray! :D

*searching for new blogskin*

busy busy! bye! :D

Posted by Bernice with love.♥
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