bernicecheee. Name♔ Bernice Chee Wai Yee Nickname♔ Ber Age♔ Eighteen(2014) Birthday♔ 13th of September Height♔ Too short to be revealed Weight♔ Around 40kg. Nationalist♔ Malaysian Race♔ Chinese Religion♔ A follower of Christ & a child of God :)
Anyeongggg.
God loves you and He created the beautiful you and the jaw dropping universe. You are beautiful and unique in your own way so don't you doubt that. :D
"Are not five sparrows sold for two cents? Yet not one of them is forgotten before God."Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Do not fear; you are more valuable than many sparrows. - Luke 12:6-7
After reading the story, what do you feel? She loved her husband so much, but her husband cheated on her. Ouch! I hate Alec!
Okay, I'm so sick with it - changing hamster's bedding. But after changing it I feel so relief. :)OI! Do I look like her? tell me honestly. :P It's 9.50pm now, I haven't eat dinner. I haven't bathe. I'm gonna shower first. GTG!
I'm sad I'm sad I'm sad I'm sad I'm sad I'm sad I'm sad I'm so so sad!
I hate today! I'm the worst person ever exist in this world. I shouldn't be alive!
I hate myself! I'm a freaking bitch bitch! >.<
You shouldn't tell me that you like me.
Please! I told you about the XXX right? (If you still remember)
I didn't talk to him for like.. I don't know how many months, but I know since after he called me and told me he really likes me.. and he's still smsing me which I don't even want to reply him!
You know, you really shouldn't hate my family members because I didn't talk to you for like, around three months. Like what you told me. I didn't talk to you because I feel sorry whenever I start sms-ing you. I'm not that kind who has complete family so I hope I can do things, at least this to let myself to have a more complete family. Whatever, I never told anyone about this. So, I'm blogging about this and tell you I'm sorry, but don't hate my family members. Please and thank you!
You are lucky, at least I talked to you after you told me that you like me. I was trying so hard to avoid the topic. So that I don't have to be like now, feeling so frustrated. Like a murderer, if I don't like you, you will continue doing what you did last time. I don't want to be a murderer. I hope everyone around me to be good. Like, not smoke and all that.
I had a friend, which was my bestie. He smokes, he's really addicted. & no one can save him from hell because he doesn't even admit that he smoke, but everyone in this world knows. I didn't talk to him or anything, I just hope that he could disappear from my life one day. & go to jail or whatever, he's really hopeless.
Smoke isn't good. Smokers are jerks. My dad's a smoker, but he isn't a jerk, 'cause he's trying so hard for me to stop. Just that, he smoked since years ago, that can be forgiven.
I don't know what but I know you'll regret for liking me.
The truth is, I'm not pretty, I'm ugly; I'm not smart, I'm stupid; I'm not normal, I'm perasan; I don't talk to you politely, I'm rude; I don't think before I say anything, I'm brainless.
I'm a bitch, the end!
So I just hope you wont hate my family members..
I thought of many things just now when I was bringing my dog out for a walk.
I know I'm weak, I cry for everything.
I just wished I could cry out loud.
I said I'm a murderer because.. You know, you said you stop smoking was because of me, I'm happy with it. Really. You have to continue stop smoking. I said I don't care that you like me because I know you wont like me for so long, I mean, not like years right? You expect me to like you back? & if I ignore you, I know you'll smoke and do everything you 'like' to do. So, I hope we can be like last time or just now, I beg you, be like before you tell you that you like me.
Don't become worse. Please please please!
Wang Lee Hom! ♥ Siew Chin, I know you're jealous, nyehehehehe! Oops, I guess my Facebook status is all about Lee Hom nowadays. & I can see that someone really hates it. Like I used LeeHom to annoy her! Yes, she's pretty, but she hates people without a acceptable reason. Okay, maybe I'm too perasan. But I know it's me! Don't worry, I won't post about Lee Hom anymore!
Back to myself! :'( Very very sad day! D: So, I was happy today! And then guess who destroyed my mood? :D DENG DENG DENG DENG~ My mom! :P Okay, of course I'm not happy with it. I'm forced to put smiley faces, because I have to! Right? Remember me? I'm Bernice Chee! Not BChee! Or Bitchy. Neither. Stupid JOEY CHRISTO TANG. Lol! I'm being random! Okay, back to main topic. After my mom asks for the movie tickets money, she said a lot of things. And you know what she said? She said she's gonna find my friends to get the money! And she said If I don't dare to get back the money, she'll call my friends by herself! And she told me money isn't easy to earn, (like I don't know) Okay, I know I'm rude. I'm sorry! D: After that, my mom went out.. & I locked the door and cried like mad. Really mad! You know, I'm not crying alone! I can feel that He was with me all the time and listening what I was saying in my heart! (deep inside, no one knows, except Him!) I mean, He is with me, every second! :) So, I prayed and told Him everything! & I really felt better after that! :P
And then.. :D I talked to Daniel Yoong! HAHAHA! You know, I actually acted I know him. Wakakaka! Like, really close friends! Well, no, jks! Normal friends lahh! Okay! And then, the story is end! Wheeeeee! :P
OMG. Tomorrow exam and I haven't memorize a single word! I'm getting lazier and lazier after day by day! I've to pass up Geography project on next Monday! I'm so so so dead now! D: Oh ya, can't wait 27th August 2010, 12.30am! :D Mars's passing by Earth! Teeheeeeee! ♥
I don't know how to start this but I know I'm gonna blog something really long today! :)
I'm not being bossy, please don't say I am.
Well, this post will be a really emotional post, so it's up to you to read this or X this.
I mean, not really emotional, but you know, tons of 'general principles'. xD
Just gonna tell you how was my day on 20th August.
Don't worry, it wasn't my worst day. I kinda used to it. ;) but I just couldn't take it..
Something like very normal, I cried for nothing, ahahaha.
You know us, normal humans, will always have some stupid thoughts.
Exp:-
We'll think if there's anyone in this world that would care about you..
Okay, don't worry. I can assure you that there's always a person (at least) in this world who actually really cares about you, :) just that you don't know!
We'll think if there's anyone in this world that has already given up on you..
I'm sure that you know some of them who put hopes on you will easily give up on you..
but true friends wont. :')
So, don't be sad when your boss/whoever around you gives up on you, you know you still have your true friends or someone important in your life. ♥
Live for them, live for God!
Last but not least, live for yourself!
Live life wonderfully, of course.
Never give up on yourself, 'cause if you, yourself give up on your own self, how do you expect others to believe you??
We'll think something negatively like when it comes to love/friendship/stuffs, we should let go or shouldn't.
Of course, what I can say is never let go easily.
Even if you failed, just try again.
Just depends on your feelings, let go if you really think you can't bare the situation.
Never let yourself feel exhaust/frustrate. :D
Take a breathe, relax!
Inhale, Exhale!
I guess, the end.
Oh okay, back to the main point!
The reason I cried was because.. something really stupid.
make sure you zip your mouth first.
don't laugh. kill you man!
So, I was at my tuition just now lahh..
Molly! ;D
After tuition, I waited at least forty-five minutes.
I mean, exactly forty-five minutes.
It was like, damn lonely! standing alone..
without my handphone + carry 2 huge bags. :\
No one remembers me!!
Until I waited until I feel like crying my heart out.
Luckily I bring money to school. & I've coins to call my brother.
*phew* I finally memorized his number!
I used public phone to call him,
and what I know was,
I WAS WAITING NOBODY TO FETCH ME.
what I heard was,
I FORGOT!
-without a sorry, freaking pissed.- >.< So, my eldest brother came and fetched me home lahh. My brother was planning to take me to dinner straight away. It was like so early. You know my dinner time is normally around 10pm right? D: with pinafore some more?! NO WAY! On the way to his friend's house, he explained why he was late.. He said: I reached home at 6.15pm just now, but then I thought it was too early to fetch you so I decided to play game. I didn't know after playing my game I would forgot to fetch you. So Julian called me at 7pm and told me about you. 'cause you called him right? So, I scolded him and blamed him, HAHAHA! but that's actually my job! Then we both went HAHAHAHHAHA! Suddenly, I had the tears-tears-shoo-away mood! :) Ramadhan foods are awesome! :D Tropicana houses are giant! It's my day! :P Btw, Lee Hom is coming M'sia today! :P 1 Utama 6.00pm! I WANT TO GO! :) The end!
When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her! With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now. The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again. In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage. This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door every morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request. I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully. My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office. On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her. On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore. She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart. That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead. My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband.... The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage! If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you. If you do, you just might save a marriage. Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up. A CHRIST-CENTERED MARRIAGE IS A MARRIAGE THAT IS SURE TO LAST A LIFETIME. So then, they are no longer two but one flesh. Therefore what God has joined together, let not man separate. Matthew 19:6. By Stephanie Halmilton
" Yes, it’s a mistake. I know it’s a mistake but there are certain things in life where you know it’s a mistake but you don’t really know it’s a mistake because the only way to really know it’s a mistake is to make the mistake and look back and say yup, that was a mistake. So really, the bigger mistake would be to not make the mistake because then you’d go your whole life not really knowing if something’s a mistake or not.
OK. I was freaking pissed when I went to his party and had nothing to do in the first hour. I feel like a bitch 'cause I'm the one who asked them STOP PLAYING with themselves. & Guess what lah, after 30 minutes only listen what I said.. = = In that asking-them-to-stop-playing progress, Mun Yee, Mauricia, Novette, Pei Yen and I kept on saying we wanna go home. :) So, it's quite fun. Thank you to someone who belanja me makan. HO HO HO.
I lazy to type everything out. You ask me if you wanna know lah! (:
Truth or Dare is fun. Queen and King also not bad :D
I would just like to say that if you watch until the end of the credits, the totem falls.
Which means whoever stated that Cobb was in the dream world was wrong. It falls. Watch the movie again until the end of the credits, and you’ll see it.
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I found that from some website.. o.0
that means I was right or something?
I didn't watch the end of the credits!! D:
(but all the comments said there's no such thing at the end. So, I think, Kyleen was right. O:)
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After all, I believe Mr. Nolan doesn’t know the answer too. I think he created it on purpose without the real answer with multiple traces which can lead to that or another theory. Considering he was creating the script for ten years he could think out the real unsolvable maze for the audience, maybe for him himself too. And as if the ending – I believe it was reality for Cobb, no matter is the rest was a dream or reality or whatnot. Finally he get home to his children and he didn’t ever care about the “truth”.
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& now, I realised, I don't really understand the movie. = = Kyleen, I need explanation on that, TQ. :D :D
I bought a new book: -It's pretty expensive, I mean, SUPER EXPENSIVE. D: I wanted to buy Air Head (book 3) but I can't find it, so I bought this. which I'm hoping Elsa, Abbey, Fiona haven't buy it.
Happy Birthday, Kakak!! :D You are now officially 30! (I think.)
At last, I didn't manage to watch Inception. I asked my dad: "Papa, can I watch Inception alone?" "ALONE?! Really? No, I'll bring you and watch with you next week!" I was like, totally heartbreak，dream destroyed. Okay, fine. I'll watch with Suet Er this week.
I want DSLR. ♥ :) Photos from Tumblr are just so beautiful. :P I wonder who are the photographers. :) I don't know why, everyone's been keep repeating that I'm cute these few days. Well, of course I'm happy, those are compliments! :D *not being perasan* It really happened kay. :P But I don't think I'm pretty though. :\ I'm not naive, I'm not kind. I'm not cute nor pretty. :X I just wished that the world I'm living wouldn't have hatreds, revenges etc. I nearly write Karma. Well Karma... I hope there is. I mean I believe there is Karma in this world lah. :) So, don't do any bad stuffs lo! Okay? C: & Karma must be in this world. Or else, humans wont know what's wrong with them. 'Cause you'll know your mistakes after incidents happened. :) I hope I don't have broken English on that. My English is just poor. I'm sorry that you have to think 10 times after reading my posts. :) I found an article two articles, you can read it when you're free. It's They're meaningful. :D Do You Let Your Mistakes Define You? How to learn from your mistakes. Click them! :P I'm just sharing, it's not a MUST to read it them. :)
I cried 2 days in a row. Thank you. I know I'm pro. I know you are jealous. :)
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