bernicecheee. Name♔ Bernice Chee Wai Yee Nickname♔ Ber Age♔ Eighteen(2014) Birthday♔ 13th of September Height♔ Too short to be revealed Weight♔ Around 40kg. Nationalist♔ Malaysian Race♔ Chinese Religion♔ A follower of Christ & a child of God :)
Anyeongggg.
God loves you and He created the beautiful you and the jaw dropping universe. You are beautiful and unique in your own way so don't you doubt that. :D
"Are not five sparrows sold for two cents? Yet not one of them is forgotten before God."Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Do not fear; you are more valuable than many sparrows. - Luke 12:6-7
If you know me, you'd probably think the weirdest side of me is that I really take birthdays seriously. People often ask why, i guess I've found myself a really good excuse that if you ever know why, you would stay silence right after that. It's really something so private that I've planned not to talk about it here and create a new private blog just to express my deepest secrets. Now that I know no one really reads my blog(I hope), I've decided to blog about it and I pray that everyone would keep their mouths shut and not spread around. I mean there's nothing too special to let this secret be known.
Furthermore, not that I'm telling the whole thing. So I beg your pardon that you will NOT judge me after reading this.
You see, I've always been overreacting about birthdays, be glad if I remember when your birthday is because it shows that you're an important person of mine. Well, truth is, it's only on my birthday that my parents would agree to have a meal with me. It's like an annual family gathering on my birthday every year so I am always happy when my birthday is near. Whenever I know one of them can't make it up for me, I would be really disappointed until I cry. But if they can make it to even have a meal with me, I would be really grateful and happy. Unfortunately, my mom always refuses to eat with me because her singing competition always clashes with my birthday. God knows why.
It so happen that this year, when I found out that she might be free, I'm really happy about it. Like seriously.. I might sound like a child that has been terribly rejected by my parents but maybe that's why I'm so LOA in front of my parents. They will never get why I'm so concerned about my birthday every year. My birthday is near so my dad bought me a box of cheese cake for me from secret recipe. I was grateful but would be more grateful if he didn't buy an rm80 one. I don't know why I get so emotional about it. It seems like his hard work and sincere heart are wasted just because no one even thinks to celebrate my birthday with me. He shouldn't have bought it this early.
For the past years, I felt grateful to have meals with my family members that a cake meant meaningless to me as long as they spend time with me. Am I really inconsiderate to want everyone to spend time with me? My mom just scolded me because I was inconsiderate when I complained that why would my dad even buy a cake when no one wants to celebrate with me. Do they really expect me to celebrate it alone. I thought I was really forever alone then. That's why I cried. I mean wouldn't it be sad to see someone having a big cheese cake and has to celebrate it alone. Just imagine that she sings happy birthday song by her own and then cuts her huge cake alone.
You may think I'm blaming my mom but no. More to go. My dad, he has never been one really responsible guy in the family. I'm sorry to say that. I did ask him but he blamed it on mom, unfortunately. A family of five can be as complicated as a family in HK dramas. It would be weird to say this but I desire my parents love that's why I always listen to their advices like to not have any boyfriend at this age(i understand that it is for my own good) whatever I did was to hope that they would see that I'm a good girl and they should at least love me because I listen to them? Cause I thought having a boyfriend would be the main cause for a scattered family. That's what I think. Imagine I'm a rebellious useless kid. Wouldn't they love me less?
I sound like a really depressed person now, huh? But that's the main reason I became a Christian. Because my parents are too busy to care about me, that's why I go to the Father who will never leave me. At least no matter what happen, God will still be the faithful one. No matter what I do He will still forgive. I mean, after all He still is the Almighty creator.
I hope whatever you've read stays here. Don't remind me of this either, don't ask me about my personal problems, just let me be who I am. Really, I still have dark secret in me that I don't wish to reveal. I'm not allowed to, too. Don't force me to tell. That's all I ask for.
David Choi really writes/composes nice songs. Even if you don't agree or have never heard of any guy's name David Choi, I, Bernice Chee Wai Yee (the one and only cute person HOHOHO), hereby announce that you are now trapped, too bad. (if you wanna know who I like *coughs*...)
So, how was it? Nice, RIGHT? (Don't answer me left, I will spank you.)
Won't you now just play the following songs I'm gonna be sharing? Trust me they are all nice. :]
HE'S SO TALENTED OMGOSH!
The truth is WONGFU always uses his music as background music LIKE IN ALMOST ALL OF THEIR VIDEOS. (Y)
I guess I shall stop posting stuff that you, some readers (or not) have already known?
I think I should be grateful about stuff and actually I am grateful for already, very. Okay, I have both bad and good news. Which one you do prefer..? I know I've told this to the WHOLE WORLD but in case you still don't know, I couldn't finish doing my Physics and Chemistry paper (almost half of them) but thank God! thank God that I still passed them! I'm just kinda worried of my Moral 'cause teacher kinda said something like.. we didn't do a good job. Oh one more good news, I passed my BM too! (Y) I mean, I knew I wouldn't fail it but I didn't expect to get such a low mark but WHO CARES ABOUT MONTHLY TEST.? Okay they actually care ._. those nerds in my class which kinda include me I ADMIT. 'cause I did STUDY for Monthly test okay! When I knew how I didn't even get to finish things that I knew how to do. That was the worst feeling, pfft. Or maybe not, I really really thank God that I can at least pass. AT LEAST I TRIED MY BEST OKAY.
Alright, I need to complete something for Mr.Mail. Wanted to do my report but as usual, got distracted by what's in front of me now. There, the laptop belongs to my brother. In case you're still living in your cave not knowing anything about me, the reason I don't go online much is because my computer had just done a great job in pissing me off about a month ago? It would auto shut down by itself.. -_-
God bless me for year end exam.
Now, that's the real exam.
You believed it, didn't you? Ah, naive like me nia.( I meant it really look like a lizard..) BOO I gotta go now.
I've been slacking the whole morning. I woke up at 10am wishing that I would finish studying my Bio Chapter 5 but I didn't. Okay, so I was using the computer with the excuse of JUST doing an August report as a Leo treasurer. After doing the report, unfortunately, I wanted to change my blogskin but I just couldn't find any nice one (I spent almost an hour on that.) Great, now I've no time to study and I still insist I should blog first before studying. I haven't taken my bath YET.
I want to blog although I don't know what I should blog about. Okay I thought of one.
Pn Chung is really.. making me speechless, how should I react when she promised me something and she didn't do it? She promised me that she would be in school the next day but she didn't. I hope my project wouldn't be canceled because of her. LIKE SERIOUSLY. Or else she's gonna blame me for not being responsible enough, I'm tired of her talking so much. Although, it's undeniable that sometimes she's really nice, or looks pretty when she smiles, 'cause the truth is everyone looks pretty when they smile. :)
Anyway, don't you get it? My main purpose wasn't to talk bad about Pn. Chung, but to share the message that everyone is beautiful when they smile. :D So, smile!
That kitten is an asian.
Do you know there's a song's name called 'Senyum' that has been playing for a pretty few times on the TeeVee? (thought about Terry Tee, or rather, his terry-ble lame joke Terry-yukcy Chicken) TOO MUCH, I should stop sharing his jokes around. ._.
So I'm not planning to buy a DSLR camera anymore.. because of some reason.. hmm, not that I'm sad. I STILL WANT A BETTER CAMERA. :D Off to bathe, I shall. :) Have a great day people! Anyeong! (trying to be a Korean HAHA)
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