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Good news people, I finally had (note: past tense) the motivation and the determination to study. Of course I have.. Exam has already started but there's like 2 weeks plus to go and I'm done with books. LOL isn't it sad? Form4 isn't a honeymoon year after all, I'm still suffering from not having the determination every time exam is around the corner. They just shouldn't have put monthly test a month before. I was slacking so much after monthly test. :(

Let me tell you something that is really disappointing. I finally touched my piano to play some songs. It's disappointing because I knew I was procrastinating. If there's no exam I wouldn't even think of touching it. P/s, it's really dusty now hahahahah. But who cares, sigh. Procrastination is really bad.

Laziness. I guess everyone has that but mine is like trained kinda lazy lol. I mean it's to the maximum level that when I admit that I can get a second place for that (or Guinness record) no one would stand out and say they can get first. I, AM SLACKING DURING AN EXAM MONTH.

Hilarious, isn't it? Laugh all you want.

Yes yes I'm getting over my obsession(not really) already. I wouldn't like someone who drinks, someone whose heart is filled with hatred. I don't know la, he's just not as 'perfect' as I thought he was. I mean I thought a lot about it. I will just stay single and available. Uhm, unavailable I mean. I don't want or need a relationship in my teenage life.

Furthermore I've written my future daughter a note that she should look at a person's inner heart (like how God does) instead of his outward appearance. Not that I did, but yea.

I'm a hypocrite that thinks I've no weaknesses(I know I have, but it seemed that way), am I not? All I think is how bad another person is but I, myself also dislike whatever other people do. When all I do is something the same. :[ oh God of peace and love, help me.