bernicecheee. Name♔ Bernice Chee Wai Yee Nickname♔ Ber Age♔ Eighteen(2014) Birthday♔ 13th of September Height♔ Too short to be revealed Weight♔ Around 40kg. Nationalist♔ Malaysian Race♔ Chinese Religion♔ A follower of Christ & a child of God :)
Anyeongggg.
God loves you and He created the beautiful you and the jaw dropping universe. You are beautiful and unique in your own way so don't you doubt that. :D
"Are not five sparrows sold for two cents? Yet not one of them is forgotten before God."Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Do not fear; you are more valuable than many sparrows. - Luke 12:6-7
Time is restricted to blog. I guess I'll just blog for around 10 minutes? Which obviously is not enough for me because I haven't processed what I'm gonna say. So I'll just speak rubbish, kay.
I feel like I'm a horrible person, or else why would I be left out then?
I'm always put in dilemma situations like, which 'side' of friends to trust? Do I trust the one I know longer of, or the one who seems to be so true?
The reason of being left out, it's actually only caused by myself. I involve myself in too many activities which I shouldn't. Why did I even join two clubs? Why did I even switch to KRS for the sake of maybe I would have fun? Okay I guess I shouldn't feel this way BECAUSE I didn't feel this way until I read my friend's blog.
Well, it's really not that I regret joining so many activities. 'Cause I once believed it would really help me in my future, that I would be a more independent and responsible person. But what if being dependent and irresponsible are just in my nature? The laziness and all the other bad bad qualities I have in me.
I was given a project to be in charged of by Melissa (the Leo President). It's a recycling project and was supposed to be done in July. I was told on the 27th of July, it was a Friday. I guess it would just sound like an excuse if I ever try to explain how I was in Penang to attend my uncle's funeral and that I couldn't do a single thing about it or even to think about it. I don't want people to think I'm a person who has all the excuses when I can't get something done, so I didn't explain. I guess I would rather be called irresponsible and let people be mad at me.
After the weekend, I managed to reach home at 4am on Monday. I had 2 hour sleep (if you don't count the interval time I was sleeping so uncomfortably in the car) and then I had to go to school! Oh I was almost late on that day, I only reached school when assembly started. Then I had 2 tuition classes to go to in the afternoon. When I reached home I needed to help my mother on house chores. The next day, well I had Chinese class and then tuition at night. I usually help my mom on sweeping and have my free time on a tuition-free day, so it was a Wednesday and I didn't get things done. Oh also, I was doing Treasurer Report(which is the worse excuse, EVER) Thursday was a tuition day so.. Time just passed like that, it was Friday and Melissa asked me how it was going. ._. BOOM, I said I didn't get anything done and I can bet she was so angry, very that she said she would pass this project to Wei Xuan and I said okay because my time is messed up.
And so now, I don't know if I'm still in charge of the project.
I promised or SAID that I would go for Leo Orientation Camp but pulled out at the last minute because my mom suddenly said NO to my wanting-to-go-for-another-camp request. It sucked, I cried. BUT SHE JUST WOULDN'T LET ME GO.
Just stalked Beverly(HAHAHAHAA, do I sound like a stalker now, are you scared?) and I saw all the LOC pictures I wanted to just kill myself because it seemed fun. I doubt my mom would let me go for LLC camp, really. I WANT TO GO. It's like UGHHHHH, it just might clash with my KOREA TRIP, I REALLY PRAY THEY WON'T CLASH, OF COURSE.
Then it's KRS Annual General Meeting. I felt so LEFT OUT during meeting when they had fun discussing about what they are gonna do this Saturday. I can't attend the LAST meeting because of my LEO meeting with the Lions. Am I just destined to not to have fun in life or something? Why am I always being stopped from having fun? Maybe I just had too much fun previously because it always seemed like nothing is gonna put me down. Is that even the right word to use?
I HAVE around fifty books to read ROFL, but they seem to be all romance books to me. Which I'm quite disgusted LOL LOL, I mean, imagine me reading 'I love you' I would go EEEEEEEE and shiver. Which reminds me of Lucy Rose, AHHH her song is just so relaxing, SOOOMEEE.
I've been using the computer for a LONG TIME. 1 hour plus and still haven't get the CF things done. NEH, the Minggu Pusat Sumber.. it's pissing me off man ._. I'm already so busy. UGHHHH, but I just can't leave myself to be a responsible person and not to care about it. So yeahhhh.. I'm gonna find some information about it. It's the least I can do. :/
TELL ME SOMETHING ABOUT BABA NYONYA. I'm dying here.
Okay I'm not. I'm still alive. :')
God is amazing.
WOOOOOOOH, so I'm gonna start talking again.
Actually, if you were in my shoes (you'd be tortured due to the heat you would get there because there wouldn't have any air ventilation HAHAHHAHA), no okay serious, if you were me what would you do if you have a friend that you've known for more than 10 years(but you and that person aren't close) then a random person(seem to be a trust-able one) comes to you and say "that person is actually quite perverted". WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
A. To stay away from them. Both of them.
B. To trust either one, the long-known one.
C. To trust the seem to be trust-able one.
D. Just kill yourself already.
ALSO, WHAT WOULD YOU DO when a KINDA close friend of yours is being emotional because of your another not-so-close but he's kinda good to you except he's really mean to your KINDA close friend.. what if, if he insulted your friend. This friend who is really lovely but for some reason, she's being insulted. WHICH NO ONE REALLY KNOWS WHY IT IS LIKE THISSS. :/ (but the truth is I can't judge cause I'm not close to anyone of them.)
A. To trust either one.
B. To trust both.
C. To stay away from him for this lovely friend.
D. Just go kill yourself already again.
I GUESS ALL I CAN DO, THE LEAST, I can do is only to pray? Got will eventually find a way? :) but still, GAH. I'm all sweaty after sweeping the whole house and now I've to be away from the computer when I haven't even done the CF baba nyonya thingy.. for this letting the clothes and pants and undies to be hung outside so that it will be evaporated by tomorrow and then I've to collect them again and fold them because no one does it except the saddest young girl in the house.
I'm like a maid now. Except I've to go to school everyday. AND WAKING UP BY MYSELF IS ONE OF MY HARDEST CHALLENGES IN LIFE, MAN.
Not to press snooze ever again because I WILL be late for school every time I do that. BOO. BYE before mom kills me.
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