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Title: Ze Procrastinator

Friday, May 18, 2012 || 11:22 PM

So I think most of you are wondering where this blogger queen has disappeared to, to north, south, east, or west? I went to the core but I know you wouldn't believe it. True reason is that I had my mid terms.. just a week ago and it's over today but I don't feel happy at all though. I don't know why it's so hard for me to FEEL the after-exam happiness. At least if I'm happy for something it will never be exam. I'm more afraid of next week. What you think MY TEACHERS would do is that they'll slack, right? (since it's a week after mid terms and stuff like that) WELL I DOUBT SO, I think my add maths teacher will probably start rushing on that subject again. And then tons of homework will be waiting happily to be done by me.

Okay I shouldn't think about it. My preparation for exams have never changed (though I WANTED TO CHANGE IT LIKE SINCE I WAS NEGATIVE ONE YEAR OLD), the last minute thing? Everyone I know.. (not really) does that.. but their last minute is what you called a month ago thing. My last minute?! It's getting worse, Physics test today? Wake up to study at 5am. And that's really where I begin from. So for like Sejarah, I didn't manage to finish Chapter 2,3,4 and I don't remember anything about Chapter 1 except for the word Tamadun, that means a city or stuff like that.

Always regretted during exam week but I've never tried to change myself after that and instead the procrastination, unfortunately, becomes worse day by day.

Always happens, even I myself feel super disappointed at myself.

No doubt, I'm still like this DURING exam week.

If it's in meter form it would be exactly like this for me, or I'll just destroy the measuring instrument by EXCEEDING the skill of procrastination.

Maybe after all it's still a never-can-be-healed disease for me.

Truth is, why does the government JUST HAS TO MAKE THESE SUBJECTS SO BORING LIKE HISTORY?!

I tell you no one likes that subject except people like Chow Yee(a classmate of mine), seriously, he told me he loves it and I was like *facepalm*. He was sitting at his place when I passed by him today and he told me he's sad and he wanted to hug me I was like O.O (it's because of his result for Moral btw) -talking about Moral, unforgivable. How do you expect us to learn moral values by memorising them and setting questions that MUST be answered according to the answer sheet you're having?! Then back to Chow Yee he wanted to pat my head and I quickly had my Ninja-Mode on because it's really weird being treated like a kid by a more blur person than I am.

And it reminded me of the Moral project I've to pass up next 3 weeks which is right after the holidays. Thought of having a productive one (which I never had although everytime I planned so hard before that just to have one)... It's all destroyed by a frigging useless project that doesn't teach me anything except to follow the format to write frigging almost 10 essays. And also that I've to act all like an independent, nice kid that I don't really like to do so because it's weird doing something good and asking someone to take a picture of you doing so and so.

It's fake, and truly, weird.

I'm gonna fail all my other subjects except for physics. Boo. I shall get back to you telling you how bad I've done the next time by stating my PREDICTED horrible results.

Let's talk about my life k? It's been traumatising. Basically by what all my LOVELY brother had done. All those super crazy things that scare my mom until she finally broke down in front of me on Mother's day. I argued with my brother several times because of something he promised but he never once do it according to his promise. So yeah, came out with a conclusion to never trust guys that promise things because ALL THE GUYS, sorry to to say including my dad don't keep their promise(S).

Not that I'm a super genius that understand all the guys but well. At least all the guys I know don't keep their promise(s). No one knows God's gender so I assume He's the Most High that shall not be given .. gender-ist view/outlook, idk. but since He's created Adam and Eve and all of us.. all glory goes to him. Since He loves, He is love, and the Bible tells us to be Christ-like, I should love too.

Anyway even though I cried everytime I argued with my brother, I got better, INSTANTLY, and didn't feel sad at all. I'm still praying for him although I'm not patient enough to talk to him face to face because I'm afraid I'll say something very bad that I don't mean it AT ALL. It's my bad habit doing so.. I'm not trying to say what, but I think The Holy Spirit was with me everytime I prayed to God earnestly when I cry, and amazing thing is I'd just start singing worship songs and I really DO feel the peace out of sudden. And the super unbelievable part is that everytime, I'd sing different song that means something about what I've prayed for or asked for answers. It's really like God's answering me through SONGS. Amazingly happened that I'm so amazed.

And off I go for quiet time and sleep. And maybe storybook that I've owed Fiona since a year AGO -_- I'm really sorry I feel SOOOOO bad. :/

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