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Title: Uncle
Wednesday, August 3, 2011 || 1:08 AM
Everything seems to be so unreal. It seems like a dream. I wish it was. He's still in critical condition. I always wonder why did this actually happen? Is it a punishment? It's the only way for me to think God's doing something. I'm sorry to think that way, Father. But I'm really curious. Is it because of both of them not talking? The punishment shouldn't be fallen on any of her family members, should it? After that not-talking incident, Ah ma stroke for the second time, didn't wake up for like half year, end up, still.. left us. Yeah I know everybody's gonna leave one day, but why can't she live until 90? At least it's more reasonable, right :( but anyway, she left when her son's still lying in the bed. I really hope she'll bless him from wherever she is. My aunt told my brother that she thought of committing suicide. That Edwina thought of stopping her studies to start working. I nearly cried when I heard these. Edwina never told me. ): I feel so useless. What can I actually do? I've already tried my best to advise them to talk. Since I think it's what Ah ma and Uncle Hoe yearned for.
Everything.. seems to be so.. weirdly untrue. It keeps me wondering, is there anyone who's living even worse than her family does? Ever part of me says there is. Of course there is, we just don't know what's happening. Anyway, I'd a lot of things in mind, but I'm sorry I can't remember what I'm supposed to say. I don't know what I'm supposed to do. The only thing I know is, as long as I trust in praying, prayer will work! As long as I trust in God, God will bless my uncle! My uncle will get well, real soon! REAL SOON! Before 2012 CNY. YES. He'll be bringing us all out for breakfast, lunch and dinner. and even supper! Negative things will disappear in the mist of the air! One day, there'll be one day when everything will be alright. Good. Everyone will be healthy and strong.
Puan Faridah taught me that every bad thing that happens will have its good side. I'm waiting, waiting for the answer, waiting for its good side. Waiting for the day when my uncle will be fully healed, waiting for the day when both of them get back together, as true, inseparable sisters.
I will wait, I will believe. I believe, I will pray.