bernicecheee. Name♔ Bernice Chee Wai Yee Nickname♔ Ber Age♔ Eighteen(2014) Birthday♔ 13th of September Height♔ Too short to be revealed Weight♔ Around 40kg. Nationalist♔ Malaysian Race♔ Chinese Religion♔ A follower of Christ & a child of God :)
Anyeongggg.
God loves you and He created the beautiful you and the jaw dropping universe. You are beautiful and unique in your own way so don't you doubt that. :D
"Are not five sparrows sold for two cents? Yet not one of them is forgotten before God."Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Do not fear; you are more valuable than many sparrows. - Luke 12:6-7
I don't have anything to blog about actually, I just want to online! :D Smart right. Pretend to blog because I want to slack. I mean, I have not started studying yet. Oh, I still have tons of homework to do :S I don't know why I didn't feel like going to church today. I mean, for cell group.. I feel like killing myself when I said I'm lazy to go for cell group - XYZ where all cell groups gather together.. I thought I didn't receive Jehanne's message! Until I clicked to read messages and I saw an unknown number, I read it.. And it's her! Stupid phone, or stupid me! :( I woke up at 1.30pm. Yes, see how ridiculous my life is? I had my lunch at 4pm, because my dad drove all the way from Shah Alam just to stopped by Ming Tien and bought us food. Yess, then he went out after that.. My brother could've just gone to Ming Tien, and it'd be faster.. Like maybe I could even eat before CG starts. Yeah, I said no. I said I'm lazy to go.. Something evil's controlling me. Since yesterday, I don't know why, I got very sad when Siew Chin wanted to sign off because she wanted to sleep. I mean, what the heck is wrong with me? People want to sleep then just let her sleep la. Not like I'm not gonna see her in school, except it's really hard to talk to her in school because we're in different class. How can I be SO selfish, so I just decided to sign out first. They thought I was angry. One part of me WAS angry, another part of me felt guilty to be angry. Then I thought I had multiple personality, and it's quite scary, but think of it, if I had multiple personality I would created another name for myself, I didn't, so I don't think I've multiple personality disorder :O No nah, just kidding, although I didn't tell them I was feeling so bad (you know I've never felt that bad before. The 'bad' does not mean I did something wrong and I felt bad. It's not that. It's another one, you know... uhm, my day is very bad.. yes that kind of bad. Okay, I've never felt worst.) I told God though. I just told them I was okay. I'm just pure selfish. :(
And after that I found myself an excuse. Because I wanted to sleep so badly, but I still continue online-ing since Siew Chin was in a bad mood. But when she said she wanna sleep I just felt so weird, er, I-can-stay-up-for-her-why-she-can't feeling. I figured, maybe it's not a mutual thing. So I tried to forget it :)
I don't know why.. I don't know how to control my emotions. It's VERY hard for me to smile. Seriously what's wrong with me? Do I hate the aroma of my house so much or what? I can go to school and laugh like an idiot but not at home. I don't want to stay in my house. Or live. But think of it, people out there don't even have a place to live! Why am I complaining? I guess, to appreciate what I have is really hard.. But I'll still appreciate every single friend I have. YAY. :) I feel so troubled omg. The something that's controlling me, you'll NEVER win, get out of my body you faggot! (LOL what's a faggot anyway? Is it a bad word? If it is, TELL ME OKAY!)
Today in the celebration, I learned that saying 'Oh my God' is not wrong. It's just us, human being, we'll sometimes say it because of the force in our body that leads us to say a prayer like this.. 'Cause we need God's help in that particular moment. :) And also, we prayed for Malaysia :) Senior Pastor Dr. Daniel Ho said today is a wonderful day for Malaysia :D It is, 'cause we have people who are willing to clean politics to let Malaysia to be a better country :D
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