"look back & learn"

Title: Emo for a second, hyper for the next.

Thursday, October 27, 2011 || 11:58 PM

You know I'm definitely the weirdest person living on this entire planet? You will never know what I'm thinking 'cause even I myself get confused sometimes. The truth is, I don't really know myself anymore. Or shall I say, I've never really gotten to know myself. I'm a brat kid, I know I am. I'm only fifteen, I want a touch screen phone for what, actually? In fact I don't even need a phone. I just want it. Wanting something, isn't it just a lust? You want that thing, but you can throw it anytime when you don't want it. It's like.. wanting isn't really EVERYTHING. Sometimes it's sickening how I over think. How I over react over things? It's ridiculous.

Anyway, was emoing about how I'm not a good daughter, how brat I am. How I'm not Lee Hom's true fan and huge and crazy fan. I just don't wanna be crazy. I just wanna be a doctor. Maybe I need to be in doctor. That really sounds better, for me. :)

Thanks la thanks, Ng Siew Chin. I was emoing halfway then you came to cheer me up, now I seriously have no idea how and what to blog.

Alright, now I'm thinking what was wrong with me actually. But still, damn it. Should I go for Lee Hom's concert?

Anyway, today's baking session was love ♥

This kid has a hobby. He loves to bully me. ): He doesn't eat almond. -_-

Meanwhile, I'm listening to this to calm myself down :)

I just feel like, I'm a bad and a rude daughter. I don't know how to respect my parents. I'm the worst child ever alive, but what can I do to show them I actually love them with all my heart? :)

I always spend a lot of money.. I don't know how to save money for them. I spend a lot when I don't even know how to earn money, isn't it funny? How some children will treat their parents badly? Like they've never appeared in their lives before?

Wanted to show you the product but I guess not now, alright? 'cause I don't know why my camera can't connect to this computer. :)

A bad news guys, not going to Thailand during end year holidays as Jo Ann might be coming back and Bangkok has been flooded so my mom is afraid that Chiang Mai might be affected. So, the good news is, we might be going to Korea next year. Teehee.

But, the thing is, SHOULD I GO FOR LEE HOM'S CONCERT?! I think going for ISA would be better, but when is ISA Malaysia?!

Labels: Baking

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Title: Of Val's birthday and baking!

Tuesday, October 25, 2011 || 9:24 PM

23.10.2011

Valerie's birthday

It was a fake CG outing. We just wanted to celebrate Valerie's birthday. I really hope she enjoyed it! It kinda became a girl CG outing since the guys didn't show up. They were the ones who suggested to watch Real Steel. It was their loss to not go!

We had fun, at least, I had fun! :)

So we watched the movie Real Steel and it was good. We missed 30 minutes of the movie, oh well! I actually felt bad for Kyleen, same thing happened to her, people promised to come but ended up didn't show up. We had an extra ticket, so she had to pay for the extra.

Don't you think this guy's cute?! His name is Dakota Goyo.

We were at 1 Utama, talking about Jayesslee in Secret Recipe. After getting in to my brother's car, we found out that Jayesslee WAS at 1 Utama too. I felt so sad until Kyleen told me not to, but I know she's sad too. HAHA :)

Oh well, didn't get their signature, but we enjoyed quite-good food there.

Food Republic

Mine! Poor me, had to eat the same food at night!

Valerie's!

Kyleen's.

Fiona's.

Jehanne's.

Valerie's work :D

Say thanks to Kyleen and Valerie for what they did, ON A TOMATO! Poor tomato! :(

Yogurt Cheese cake!

A tiny candle can light up the whole world, isn't it amazing? :D

Wanted to buy Kyleen Joe Brook's album but I didn't. Felt kinda bad though, I know she wanted it so much. GAH, gotta think about what to give her next year. D:

25.10.2011

Baking Session!

Was going to rot at home so I decided to have a baking session with Jing Wei. We were longing to bake and were planning to do so during holidays. So this is it!

So great. Look who did this! I literally ruined everything. LOL. Wanna taste some roasted chocolate?!

After all, I still had this little hero saving all my messed up work. Can you imagine I even forgot to add in EGGS?! I'm a failure. Brownies nearly became brownies without EGGS D:

We were doing this for almost 1 and a half hour. Thank God Jing Wei went tuition in time.

Jing Wei's priceless expression. Oh and lucky bears who have the chance to be in this picture!

In the process of going-to-be-done.

It looks puffy :D

Jing Wei was doing EVERYTHING in my house. Although I asked her not to. (So I was't bullying her, don't misunderstand! :P)

The product was okay though. :)

Labels: Baking, Outing

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Title: Everything's changing to BM? A big NO!

Friday, October 21, 2011 || 4:08 PM

Anyone wants to do the same? :'( I'm seriously disappointed of how our Education Minister actually thinks. Gah people, pray for me that he'll read it! PLEASE!!

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Title: Anything and Everything!

Wednesday, October 19, 2011 || 10:04 PM

Android logo is cute ♥

So yes, I have the same phone as my maid and am now having a dilemma. Right, it's so weird to share the internet connection with my maid. I mean, it's not that I'm selfish, or maybe I am, but come on she's been watching movies whole day long on her phone even when she's cooking. Like oh my goodness, if I were to continue snoozing my phone and sleeping this morning, I would have had waken up late. Okay so the truth is I did wake up late today(6.30am) and was rushing like the world's ending. Seriously, but honestly, I always rush.. 'cause I don't really know why, it's like when I have more time to prepare I'll be like "okay still have some time left", and I'll be ended up rushing. Oh by the way, I think one of the reasons she couldn't wake up today was she was watching movies on her phone at 1am yesterday, I was about to sleep and so I went in to her room and took pajamas. Like oh my goodness, I don't even know what time she slept.

So it's really weird that now she wants more. She was like : I want games. But you know when you want to go to the Android market you actually have to sign in your google account? I tried to sign in mine but I couldn't, I bet she thinks I purposely did that, 'cause I pushed all to my brother. Thanks to him, my maid is now Youtube-ing 24/7. And so YES, she has a better phone than my elder brother and mom. I quite pity my elder brother because he spoiled his blackberry (which was supposed to be mine and he blamed it on the phone, he said it was lousy, etc, just to avoid from paying RM300 to me/ my mom. He freaking owes me RM50. Oh now I know why my Angpao & birthday money are decreasing.)

So what should I do, really? I'm getting really annoyed. Can she at least use her headset or something?! Freaking loud and she's playing some Indian song which I don't understand. Err, not being racist, but I'm speaking the truth, I don't understand a thing. I'm so useless.

Fiona and I were so free just now, we were the judges of the third round of the game, Cluedo.(for today) So we went to Pn. Tan and asked her about Chinese. She said Chinese(the language) is VERY important if you want to get a scholarship from other international countries. They will only give you a scholarship if you've 2 international language on your PMR/SPM cert. Your chances to get a job will be higher because you outshine people who only take Chinese(the subject) in PMR. Just realised how dumb I was to give up Chinese, nearly lowered down the chances to get a scholarship. My mom said it's okay to get bad grades for Chinese, 'cause we ARE Chinese so we have to learn and teach our children the tradition. 'Cause it's weird when you yourself don't even know about your race! It's a shame, isn't it? (well, shame on me, I don't know much about Chinese tradition)

You know she also told us that, our children might have Malay teachers to teach them Chinese in the future? It's cool but can you imagine us Chinese don't even know our own language but expect other race to help us to teach our children? That's REALLY a shame! 100+ malays are sent to China to learn Mandarin. They're coming back to Malaysia next year. They even tried to get a PhD for that! I mean, that's really amazing isn't it?

But can I just say some malays are just racist? They want us Chinese to go back to China when they don't even have their own country to stay on. I mean, come on, HELLO! Malaysia is for Bumiputera you douche! Go back to your unknown country then!

The thing is EVEN NAJIB SPEAKS ENGLISH ON TWITTER. It's obviously an international language! Can't our Education minister see that? Sorry to say that but you're so blind!

If you've never read Najib's tweets! Here you go : Najib's twitter.

Well, at least he DOES tweet in English sometimes.

Oh by the way, back to Cluedo! It's a freaking awesome game, no? :P So I acted smart yesterday and thought something was something.

It's a dice with this sign on it. So yesterday's rules were simple so Kyleen won twice. Today's rules were hard but it's definitely more challenging. By the way, yesterday's rules were simple because we kinda played it wrongly.

We had 6 people the first round, Me, Fiona, Kyleen, Zoe, Cheryl, Min Yi. Cheryl won. So more people came and we reached like 11 people so we paired up. It became 5 pairs but with 1 extra in Chee Poh's group, the white and not polluted group! HAHA, Jing Wei and Chee Poh should've paired up. It would be so cute to see them playing together. The third round, MORE people joined so Fiona and I decided to give out the chance to other people, so we were the judges of the game. It was fun though! :)

I bet I'll miss this moment anytime in the future. It's just like we're back to standard 6 again! :) I shall cherish the last month of school days for Form 3. Gotta work hard next year!

By the way, I do need someone to pray for me that I'll get in to Pure Science stream!! Doctor dreams will be gone anytime, due to my stupidness during PMR D:

Wanted to click "publish post" but I just remembered something to write.

So I was kinda "invited" to go to the discipline room yesterday. Having known that Cheryl was quite pissed off about me going off without informing. I mean, because I myself didn't know I was going off for so long. :( Not telling why I went there but I told my mom about relationships at night. (not that I'm having one but just decided to talk about it) She told me it's TOO young to be in a relationship. & it's true 'cause I've seen a ton of break ups happening among my friends. The truth is, only 0.01% high school relationships really last, 'cause it NEVER lasts. They say how they can love someone forever? It's all cow dung (you need to think deeply to know what cow dung means). So never get involved with relationships when you're only a high school student.

You can love someone, just like me, we all have to go through this, it's normal for high school students to fall in love, but never do something stupid like having [the three letters] with the one you love, even when you're obsessed with that person. A stupid 13 year old girl had 17 times [the 3 letters] with a 19 year old guy in 3 days. SEVENTEEN times! She might just have AIDS by now -.- I mean, seriously, don't they feel tired?! LOL. Just saying but continue on with the relationship thing, YES it never lasts long!

Honestly, what you must have in a relationship is honesty. Even if you did something wrong, you're scared of getting ignored after telling your partner everything, you still have to tell! That's what I figured in my friend's relationship. They were getting far apart each day and this guy was so emotional. He talked to me and all I asked him to do is to tell her everything he told me. Thank God they are even closer now. :) Hallelujah, really hope their relationship will last forever! This guy gave me a feeling that he really loves her and wants to build a family with her, not now but in the future. Even sometimes when he's childish, I think he'll be a great dad because I know this guy, he wants a complete family. :)

Unfortunately, some people are just pure childish, ARE YOU FREAKING SERIOUS? EVERY MONTH A DIFFERENT BOYFRIEND?! You slut! The first month, you were lying in bed with #1 and taking pictures.. The second month, you were with someone else, I shall name it as #2, kissing & saying how you'll never let him go. The third month, great! A new boyfriend, saying how you broke up with #2, "that's one month ago already". I know it's kinda obvious, but I just want this girl to know that she will regret it in the future. WILL ← mark that word. I might get whacked anytime, but come on I'm just saying it for her own good!

There's this another example, this guy is so hot tempered, he can't even control his temper and expects to get a girlfriend. The point is the girl IS my friend. I've tried to protect her many times, but she just doesn't see how this guy is bad to her. Everyone else knows he treats her VERY badly. She's always crying and asking for help but end up getting back to that guy. (I know it sounds like me, but at least the one I like doesn't involve with something like gangsters) He's always screaming at innocent people, finding people to whack someone. How lifeless can he be?

Girls, just want to tell you to not be so desperate, seriously! You'll never know what kind of person your partner might be in the future. Will he get a job or stuff like that.. So, PEACE OUT yo! Bye! God bless you ALL! :)

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Title: Android Family :)

Monday, October 17, 2011 || 9:39 PM

FINALLY, NEW PHONE!! :D

Like OMG I've waited for like 365 centuries.

I'm now living in an Android family. The reason I'm blogging now is I have to leave my phone aside to be fully charged for 8 hours. So I'm gonna do all I want now until the next 8 hours, 'cause by then my concentrations will all be focused on my new phone..

But wait NO, I'll have to go to school after that. Like what??? And am actually staying back until 4pm tomorrow. Dear Vice president, look how I sacrifice for KRS! Yours sincerely, BERNICE CHEE IS A HAPPY KID.

Well,

All I wanna say is..

Whatsapp here I come, I'm gonna text everyone who has whatsapp whole day long. :D

OH BY THE WAY, CAN I KNOW WHO HAS WHATSAPP?!

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Title: My October

Sunday, October 16, 2011 || 9:09 PM

4/10/2011

The First Day of PMR.

I was studying for the second day of PMR. Look how messy my desk was. Oh by the way, it's a new study table :P